no.

tongue dissolving in your throat

coughing

pissing yourself

So there’s people who come in and out of our lives, yadda yadda. I know my closest, dearest friends really will always be around, even when I only see some of them maybe once or twice a year. They always pick up when I call, always are happy to talk and still keep in touch via text... even just a random image “reminded me of you” or some shit.

Then there’s people who I thought were near and dear to me... but I have to realize maybe were just my friend for a period of time? Like maybe I served my purpose? Or maybe I’m just a reminder of a low point in their lives? They don’t really answer the phone, or text back, and when I see them its by coincidence, and that hurts the worst.

And I’m only putting this on here cause no ones gonna fucking read this. There’s no pictures in this post, there’s no gifs you can relate to.

I guess I just don’t know if I want to ask what went wrong? Because sometimes its a person you really felt a connection with, and it really hurts realizing they don’t really give a shit about you. Maybe I sound weak, and if you think I do, I’ll smash your fucking face in, because I’m not. Maybe I get so mad and feel so cast out that I want to hit these people or call them out? I mean, when I see and hear people I used to hang with on the regular still kicking it and I don’t know what the fuck I did to cause them to ignore me?

Its enough to make me feel worthless, every single fucking time.