Aspiring Cuckquean

Thank you so much! I’ve been so loved and so incredibly happy this past year. I’m very lucky to have the people in my life that I do <3

A: Never rimmed a man before, but I’ve had the pleasure of worshipping my Goddess’ ass a few times now. I’m glad that any time I’ve been permitted to, she reminds me that it’s still more attention than I deserve from her

This is the only way I feel emotionally fulfilled. Working myself to my breaking point for a chance for the tiniest shred of attention I can manage to get from her. I was MADE to do this. To serve her, hand and feet. Wanting more. Never receiving. Only giving.

Anything and everything that lets me indulge in emotional masochism. Recently, it’s been the fantasy of being put to work as a domestic slave where my Mistress is never satisfied. Never praises me. Never lets me feel good about myself. Always beating me back down when I think I’ve been good. Destroying me emotionally. Making me suck her cock before she leaves for hours without texting or calling. Tracking mud into the house and beating me for not cleaning it fast enough. Working me to exhaustion and enjoying my suffering. This fantasy, where I give my everything and she gives me nothing, because she is a white transfem Goddess and I am a black cunt. I deserve abuse. I crave it. I was born to crave it desperately.

A: Nope, and I haven’t cared to try to yet