bastard

If I don’t follow you back it’s because my main account is inactive and is from when i was a femalebrained “soft girl uwu” 16 year old but I have a lot of porn saved there so I keep it as an archive

Ultimately being permabanned from Reddit was a good idea I’m much less brainwormed now

I feel very conflicted for my interest in yuri and considering myself a himedanshi. I know I could never live life happily as a butch lesbian, I cannot stomach the idea of calling myself one anymore. If I truly don’t have any other choice and I was forced to detrans I could try, but realistically I need to see a physical change, I cannot look at my body anymore. Yet, when I see lesbian media I feel…yearning? I just feel more comfortable than yaoi, maybe because I subconsciously see myself as the bottom in yaoi and I feel disgusting because a part of me is haunted by the idea of being forced to be with a man and to be the woman of the relationship. I just prefer to look at women, but I also feel too guilty and disgusting jerking off to lesbian porn, yet I just prefer to see lesbian narratives as a whole. Most of my yearning and desires are in st4t but still, my love for women prevails.

This is so fucking embarrassing but if anybody is willingly to post a Reddit post written by me on their account I’d be grateful because I have been permabanned from it and I kind of need urgently to vent to FTMvent.

Successfully succeeded in only putting passing masculine trans men on my Instagram fyp, I am free from the hefab ftfemboy curse

I fucking hate other trans men.

Of course OF COURSE I have to study and be forced to see happy trans men on the internet the day the internal bleeding starts again.

i think a lot of men would stop being misogynistic or have misogynistic thinking if they had no penis. it's insane what the lack of being able to penetrate makes you think of as a man.