Damn i know this sounds bad, but I wanna be the one to break some hearts this time. I'm so sick of getting my heart broken, I wanna be the one that has girls wanting me but im lowkey disinterested... but God damn fucking covid is halting my game. And the girl im dating rn is in the same boat I am where she's trying to get over someone, so she def won't be all over here swooning over me as I take it easy and slightly worry about how I'll eventually have to let her down, ffs.
Like I just wanted to get my rebound on with someone that would make me feel wanted!! Someone that would put effort into me and my needs! But maybe I should just find another way to get over the ridiculously psychotic and emotionally abusive year I spent chasing that fucking bitch. Remember the name, Brileigh Broslaw-Kahane. Because damn is she the worst person i have ever met. I learned a lot from it but fuuuuck all the healing I have to do now to get over all of that. I can't believe how manipulative she was, and her compulsive lying. But I loved that girl during that shit somehow. And I need to process the fact that I really did fall in love with her abusive ass, and move on. And hopefully getting some attention from Meaghan rn is going to help, with the subsequent hope that we don't get put in a lockdown again... I do like Meaghan.
