I am not a human. I am a mirror.
I am not a human. I don't feel like one, anyways. I've never felt like one. I don't know how to. I am a mirror. An antique mirror. A broken mirror. A broken, antique mirror sat in a gold plated frame, underwhich is led. I am a tool a human uses. I am an object: a broken, toxic, object. Incapable of feeling the emotions a human can, incapable of doing the things a human can. I sit alone, all day and all night, waiting for a human to come and interact with me.
When a human does come and interact with me, it's the greatest joy of my life. I get to reflect a human, I get to feel as if, perhaps, I too am a human; but it's just a reflection. The human always thinks for a moment that I'm another human, that makes me feel so good, it's beyond words. They always notice the cracks in my glass though. They move their hand and the reflection moves back. It's almost seamless, but they notice the crack regardless. They always notice the imperfection; they notice that the "human" they see before them is fake.
Then they reach out.
Then they cut themselves on my broken glass.
It's my fault, really. I should have been thrown away a long time ago. I would have done it myself by now but an object doesn't have the power to throw itself away. The reason I haven't been thrown away yet, at least by my current owners, is because of the gold plating; the almost-worthless outside that humans seem to think is valuable. They don't seem to have figured out about the led yet.
Sometimes I wish I was a human. Could you imagine? Being human? Picture me as a human. Picture me as a human, with a human, not as a possession but as an equal. I could be with them without having to be them. Sometimes I imagine myself and a human going places like a human does. Like a park, perhaps. Or a store. A flea market, or maybe an observatory. Could you imagine me, as a human, with another human, at an aquarium? We'd go and see the fishes swimming about. We'd pet the mantas and the star fish in that little open part. Such flat creatures. Very texture. Maybe at one point in the night I could be looking at the fishes in their tank when for a brief moment, instead of fishes my eyes would change focus and dilate to see the glass, see my own reflection. Me, a human being with a reflection of my own, could you imagine that? Maybe that wouldn't happen though, maybe not a second would go by where I could take my eyes off my person, my equal, the one I came here with and will go home with. Who's to say?
We go to the gift shop at the end of the night and get a little trinket. It'll help us remember our day here. Or maybe we won't? After all, we're humans, it's my understanding that humans have memories that last far longer than mine do. That's another thing, as a human I'd be aware of the world around me, I'd be present, I'd be able to remember things and think about things and feel things about the things I think about and remember.
We'd go home, human and human, soul and soul. In the real world I'm not a person, I'm just a broken tool, but maybe as a human I could be a functioning tool? Maybe I could do things to make other humans happy? I can make food, perhaps, I can make food that the other human can eat, and enjoy, and then they'd tell me I did a good job and that I'm worthy of their love. As a human I could do other things too, I can cook, I can clean, I can tend to my human when they're sick, I can love them and help them and I can-... I can... Well, I don't know. What ever makes the other human happy, I suppose. I guess that's the tool in me talking, it's hard to imagine life as a human when you've never been one. I remember now, Sex, humans Sex each other, that has to be one of the things I'm forgetting. Broken Mirrors don't Sex, when you touch us you get cut and bleed, but as a human I wouldn't have that problem. I could fulfil my duty as a tool if I was a human, I could do my job and make a human happy. Could you imagine it? Making a human happy? Doesn't that sound wonderful? As a tool, that's all I've ever wanted, and if I was a human I could do that. Not only could I make a human happy, I could make two humans happy, because I'd be a human too and I'd be happy.
On the more selfish side, after sex humans snuggle together. They share their warmth together all through the cold night. They become each other's fire, their spark. Then after that we'd wake up the next day, two humans still, and we'd do it all again. It's such a splendid thought that I almost don't have the words for it.
Yeah. What a nice thought. Being human.