Put that in your pipe and smoke it

Original post: http://patternofdefiance.tumblr.com/post/131922361206/1234567

One Insecurity: In general, I have pretty low self esteem

Two Fears: That I’ll never find anyone who loves me, and that I’ll be found out to not be as great as anyone thinks I am. 

Three Turn-ons: saying nice things, lingering looks, letting me listen

Four Life Goals: marriage, having my own business, buying a nice house, making my mom happy

Five Things I Like: Recently, I’ve been liking hazelnut coffee, Just Dance for Nintendo Wii, Piyo (pilates/yoga combo workouts), making my own neckties, and cheesecake flavored kit kats

Six Weaknesses: being insecure, acting like a jerk sometimes, acting like I’m on my high horse, overeating, spending too much money, not being able to say what I need to say

Seven Things I Love: my mom, my friends, my Sherlockian family, my job, the ocean, sunsets, good conversations

Belgium: What do I think of my siblings? I don’t have siblings.

Bulgaria: Who do I consider close to me? I consider my mother close to me. I’d like to think I have some good friends who know me well. I’m pretty distant from people emotionally for the most part. 

China: I caught something in a crane machine. That’s probably the proudest moment of my life. hahaha!

Estonia: Do people misunderstand me? Story of my life. 

France: How do I show love to people I care for? I try to fix them, help them out with their problems- whether they know they have problems or not. And I try to tone my extreme personality down a bit too. 

Japan: A secret about myself. There’s this guy at my school who I totally could have had sex with. he was kind of cute and he would have driven the 200 miles just to get in my pants. I didn’t take him up on that offer, though. I just felt like he would have been really awful to me. But sometimes I still think about it. 

Switzerland Do I consider myself good, evil, or neutral? I think morality is relative, and I admit making questionable decisions. if I were a character in a story, I would probably be the primary antagonist. But since it’s my story, I get to be the protagonist. See?

Tibet: What do I value most? aside from surviving- staying true to myself and doing whatever I want. 

Ah! Okay. Now that I’m a bit more caught up I’m going to answer these things.

Thailand: My poker face…isn’t even a poker face. It’s me faking emotions I don’t have. Muahahaha.

South Italy: My favorite part of my personality is how well synergetically..

Macau: Favorite festival? I love county fairs. I don’t go to many festivals, but I do want to go to more of them.

Finland: Do I prefer kindness, sternness, or apathy? I think it depends on the situation, they’re all needed in different situations. 

No, Tumblr didn’t eat the message. I’ve just been away all weekend. 

2. I think it depends on the situation? Not a prude, but I’m very shy in matters of the heart. But I’m not afraid to meet people and pour on the charm.  hahaha. Socializing is a calculated thing for me.

3. I’m looking forward to seeing you in St. Louis, of course! <3. Plus, 221B Con is coming up this weekend so I’m looking forward to seeing all of the friends I made last year.

12. Here are my top 5 right now:

Wake up by One Be Lo

Primadonna Girl by Marina and the Diamonds

Worst Comes to Worst by Dilated Peoples

Within You by David Bowie

Bandit by Birdcloud

22. If I could go anywhere right now, I’d like to go to Hawaii. I went on vacation once and it was so beautiful and the culture is something I long to have. A person can be Chinese-American-African-x-y-z and it’s all fine. Not so much anywhere else.

38. My dream guy. Hmmm. This is so difficult because all the men I’ve ever liked were different in almost every aspect. But I’ll just keep it in vague terms. My dream guy is a handsome, rugged creature.  He should let me be completely honest and doesn’t make me want to build up this caricature of myself. Ideally, he would be a great conversationalist, funny, charming, will say all the nice things first, and be patient with me

54. Favorite store has to be Sam’s Club. I know that sounds so ridiculous when I could have picked Sephora or any other cute boutique, but it’s so handy. 

58. Last thing I ate was pineapples. I hear that they’re good for building up muscle post-workout.

59. Sadly, no pets. My roommates are allergic and I’m in temporary living spaces. 

127. That’s a good question. It makes me happy when something I’ve worked really hard for comes to fruition and I got exactly what I wanted. I feel happy when I’ve earned someone’s confidence and loyalty. On a more shallow level, it makes me happy when I feel like I’m among friends.

141. I’m probably a night person, but I love the feeling of lazy mornings. 

I felt the same way about Sherlock and John! Well, we haven't reached the end of the story yet so who knows? I think that the two /do/ love each other in a very intense, more-than-just-friends way, but not in a romantic sense. 

I do like Mary Morstan though, she's charming and vivacious.