Imagination, Meet Me.

696 Bascoguin, Jervie Joy Bernaldez

I used to be a college student when I first wrote in this app. How time flies!

I am already in my 30s, not jaded but learned and still learning I must say.

My spotify wrapped top artist still oscillate between The Maine or The 1975, and include Taylor Swift in the mix.

Life passes us by gid ya, for real.

Sonder: The realization that each passerby has a life as vivid and complex as your own.

Opia: The ambiguous intensity of Looking someone in the eye, which can feel simultaneously invasive and vulnerable.

Monachopsis: The subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place.

Énouement: The bittersweetness of having arrived in the future, seeing how things turn out, but not being able to tell your past self.

Vellichor: The strange wistfulness of used bookshops.

Rubatosis: The unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat.

Kenopsia: The eerie, forlorn atmosphere of a place that is usually bustling with people but is now abandoned and quiet.

Mauerbauertraurigkeit: The inexplicable urge to push people away, even close friends who you really like.

Jouska: A hypothetical conversation that you compulsively play out in your head.

Chrysalism: The amniotic tranquility of being indoors during a thunderstorm.

Vemödalen: The frustration of photographic something amazing when thousands of identical photos already exist.

Anecdoche: A conversation in which everyone is talking, but nobody is listening

Ellipsism: A sadness that you’ll never be able to know how history will turn out.

Kuebiko: A state of exhaustion inspired by acts of senseless violence.

Lachesism: The desire to be struck by disaster – to survive a plane crash, or to lose everything in a fire.

Exulansis: The tendency to give up trying to talk about an experience because people are unable to relate to it.

Adronitis: Frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone.

Rückkehrunruhe: The feeling of returning home after an immersive trip only to find it fading rapidly from your awareness.

Nodus Tollens: The realization that the plot of your life doesn’t make sense to you anymore.

Onism: The frustration of being stuck in just one body, that inhabits only one place at a time.

Liberosis: The desire to care less about things.

Altschmerz: Weariness with the same old issues that you’ve always had – the same boring flaws and anxieties that you’ve been gnawing on for years.

The pain I feel just by looking at these photos is immense. God knows, God knows….

I am in love with this podcast and maybe I am in love with E.R. Fightmaster.

*vulnerability hour*

May is almost ending... and I am still grinding for this year's bar exam. This would be my second rodeo but there are still a lot of things that I am learning. And the time is ticking.

So, maybe... just maybe... This is why I got held—to master the law for my future clients. These people deserve an excellent lawyer not just someone who wings it for the sake of it.

I recently had my phone repaired. Most of the files here were from 2022 and before that.

Saw this photo…

This was taken back in June 2021. And I still recall my anxieties and worries here pero I cannot shake how genuine this smile was. I miss my self smiling like this. 🥺