#lifelately

Backlog update:

Yung ilang buwan kong pinaghirapan pag ipunan na first time ko ginawa in my whole life. Sobrang naging strict ako sa pagiipon ko hanggang sa makayanan ko nang mag move out sa house ng mom ko.

Finally, I have my own space na. Sariling pinaghirapan, sariling pinagsikapan. Sobrang saya ng puso ko. Kasi kinaya ko, kaya ko pala.

Up and down with 1 bedroom and 1 mini closet room na ginawa kong mini studio ko pra sa work ko. Kulang kulang pa ko sa gamit pero uunti untiin kong pupundarin! Mag iipon ulit ng mag iipon.

Nights lately.

Hello Tumblr I'm here again. I thought my blog was a goner, thanks to the Tumblr support team I was able to access it again.

8 years ago pa last login ko. How are you guys? Di na pala tayo mga bata ano? Is life treating you well or threatening you? Sana sumasaya pa din tayo most of the time kahit di palagi.

graduating student ako, ended my last semester in PUP-OUS with flat 1 na GWA. happy ako sobra kasi i feel like lahat ng hirap and pagod ko ng apat na taon unti-unti ng nagpe-paid off like for real, after 12 freaking years finally totoo na 'to na masasabi ko na graduating na ko. aside from that, some saw my story rin na nakapag pa picture na kami for graduation with my friends. apparently, ayoko pa rin i-post not until makuha ko na yung list of names ng graduates. so far, masaya ako no jokes when it comes to academic kasi masasabi ko na finally talaga this is it, pwedeng pwede na mag retire mommy ko.

gumaan din yung dalahin ko recently sa mga relationship ko with friends. natuto ako na makipag communicate about sa nararamdaman ko sa friendship na meron ako sa mga tao na yon. i feel like masakit din sa part ko na magsabi ng mga words knowing na we experienced different traumas in life and i really appreciate them on how they accept my side, pano nila ko pinakinggan and pano nila pina feel sa akin valid din yung nararamdaman ko. this is the friendship na masasabi ko na di ko kailangan pumili. na di ko kailangan na umiwas. di ko kailangan may i-give-up nalang bigla. kasi for sure, sobrang deserve nila yung friendship na meron kami sa isa't isa. maybe some di maiintindihan but if you will listen lang sa lahat ng sides, sobrang gaan sa pakiramdam na para kang binunutan ng tinik sa dibdib.

on the other hand, i know health is wealth and just like before i humbly ask for you prayers na sana monitoring nalang ako annually and di na every six months kasi ang hirap, the anxiety and pressure di mo maiiwasan. aside from that, medyo mabigat siya financially like 20k and above yung kailangan kong i-raise every monitoring not included the follow up check-up fee and medicines kahit na sobrang mura ng maintenance ko for unemployed like me mabigat na rin siya.

finally, natapos ko na rin yung dapat kong gawin sa business ko kanina sa BIR babalikan ko nalang din yung receipt after 2 weeks. all i need to do is focus sa rebranding para mas organize yung shops and hopefully before the pasukan [kasi malapit lang kami sa school] maayos ko na rin yung area ko para sa small business ko.

above all, i am grateful to my strong support system, na hindi ako iniwan from my family to nikko to my friends. despite all the highs and lows since april 2023, they stayed and supported me throughout my ptc journey. sabi ng iba, arte nalang 'to. but for me it's a no. kasi hindi niyo alam pinagdaanan ko from my check-up, pre-op, post-op, till now. that's why i don't mind if my circle is small, as long as masaya ako with them, they respect, love, and understand me okay na ko na sila sila nalang.

It’s been ages since my last update. I guess I just had more things to take interest into. This space has been very therapeutic to me during my abroad season. But, I kind of disregarded this space for a year. I just celebrated my 1 year being back to the place I am most comfortable to and where I am most happiest, Philippines To be honest, the transition was not easy as I thought it would be especially on the career part.  I will be celebrating my 1st year in my current company. My biggest takeaway for my first year is that even if you love your current job setup, it is not everyday that it is like that. There are days when you wake up feeling lazy and not motivated to work. There are days when you are not in your best self. Tamang breakdown lang talaga tapos laban ulit.