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Why did you decide to write your fanfiction?

I had this idea in my mind for some time, at least partly, and it is mostly my headcanons regarding this duo (therefore my tags are OOC - Out Of Character, as I am sure this was never intended in the Trinity Blood canon verse). In a RAM V in Hugue's story, he tries to commit suicide, and we see his spiralling mental state; therefore, I think this wasn't the only lowest point in his life, as he survived a lot.

And it is also very personal work for me on multiple levels.

Was this inspired by your life?

I am an author, and every person's life is reflected in their work. Their ideas and past can be read through the pages of books you read. But definitely the fact that I made up a some sorts of social system - i.e. the mention of asylum house or the fact that he got kicked out due getting into a prison are things I've seen, and I know it is happening to people I know, and without that I would probably never thought about these things.

Why is the writing so repetitive?

Firstly, it is my writing style, as I am a little closer to experimental writing than the average mainstream book published now. Secondly, the negative thoughts often repeat themselves in a person's head, even in word-for-word sentences.

There is mention of Osamu Dazai's quotes as the name of the work and the name of the chapters. Can we know more about that?

"I Am Standing on That Cliff and Laughing" is a quote from The Flowers of Buffoonery, which haunts me, as the main character is describing how he felt before attempting suicide.

"He Was a Good Boy, an Angel" is a very famous quote from No Longer Human, as it is how someone is describing the main character at the end of the book – all the things he did, all of the wrong ones, but they still viewed him as a good person. Also, one of my very favourite ones in the context.

"I Am Going Home" is a quote which the main character of No Longer Human mutters while waking up from a suicide attempt. Very fitting.

"Don't Make It Sound Too Good, It's Giving Me the Creeps" is a reaction of a friend in The Flowers of Buffoonery after the main character describes his suicide attempt.

Aren't you afraid someone is going to spiral because of your work?

I am, but I believe I put there enough warnings for that not happening. Read at your own risk.

Was it hard for you to write this?

Surprisingly yes. I am used to writing about murders and suicide, as I started as a horror author, and I am always partly in that field. Probably because the overdose is more personal. And I must say, I was unable to write that part entirely sober and without cigarettes. But other parts were as easy as other fanfiction work – harder than normal writing, but it is very interesting to me to write fanfictions. And the fandom is small, so people don't expect the highest quality of work – I still try the hardest, and this one was very well written the best I could.

I did put there some things just for the sake of the plot and for the themes of the work, but I hope it isn't that eye-losing.

Why is there a random cat?

I like cats, and it is a narrative tool. Maybe I can call her my Trinity Blood OC, even though it won't be mentioned anywhere (unless someone starts begging for her).

Your fanfiction is trash.

Thank you, but it is my trash, and I love it nevertheless.