Not Everything Is As It Seems

Just because they are your soulmate doesn’t mean you are theirs.

i want to throw up until there is nothing left of me

I’ve only ever written one thing on here. It was a piece from my heart to the girl i love, she wasn’t meant to read it, she sneaked a look at my phone when i wasn’t looking and found it. I’ll never forget the look of pure love on her face even though i had no clue what she had found. The look of love with a hint of shyness even though we knew each other so well. Since we got together we have been on an emotional rollercoaster filled with everything. But despite the hardships, despite the dark times, despite the pain and the heartache, despite the Disney movies i still love her. I know i’m not quite what i envisioned i would be, i have to become what i once was. The love is there, as true as the day i realised it, it’s just a little lost somewhere in my psyche, somewhere in the car crash that my head seems to be at the moment i have misplaced these actions that go with these feelings, but they didn’t leave, i know they’re there and i will drag them out and dust them down and hand them to her on a silver plate in the manor that a princess deserves. My first post was a love letter, this is an apology. I should not have let myself become this person, i despise this person. I’m truly sorry and i truly love you. My one, my love, my everything ❤️

I have never loved as hard as this. I want to be with you until my dying breath. I want you to go to sleep every night next to you. I want to wake up every morning and have your perfect eyes be the first thing i see. I want to share every moment, good and bad with you. I want to live your dreams with you because your happiness is all i care about. I want to make huge romantic gestures but also make small little moments like a simple kiss seem as big. I guess the point i’m trying to get across is that i want you