Salem

Heya, so here's my introduction, right? I rarely undrstnd wut I'm expected 2 do in real life, god forbid the internet. I'm a misanthropic freak that has the mentality of AM- but nah cuz in real life I'm not the antichrist. I'm big on ethics, philosophy, morality, all that bullshit. But in this blog I aim 2 push that all aside, bhold my magnum opus of degeneracy !

I hav a special interest regrding Repo! The Genetic Opera & I'm always down 2 talk abt it...I mean...if anypony wants 2 listen...............................

Name- Salem

Pronouns: He/They

Sexuality: ASEXUAL + OFTEN SEX REPULSED, Demiromantic, Omnisexual/I hav no idea

Paras:

Mental Illnesses: C-PTSD, MPD (masochistic personality disorder), PDD, ASD, GAD, ADHD, GD, ARFID, SPD, FNSD, SM, OSDD, ND, Peridotic catatonia, suicidal ideation

Phobias: agoraphobia, trypanophobia, emetophobia

Coping mechanisms: Derealization + Depersonalization + Dissocation, paranoia, self isolation, anxiety, age regression, paras, anger suppression, freeze response, ASD

Fears: Throwing up, needles, elevators, my freeze response, going into psychosis, myself, loud nosies, not being in control (ik silly right?)

Sometimez I hear voices & hallucinate but atm I hvn't hallucinated in quite a while! Take into consideration that I hav rly severe C-PTSD & I get scared rly badly sometimes. So maybe b cautious of that cuz I tend 2 freak out. Recently I was gr00med & I constantly get flashbacks but my paras make me feel so much better & hav been helping me heal in some ways. MPD is rly bad 4 me tho & my notes app is filled 2 the brim w/ fantasies as I'm trying 2 keep my whole "clean 4 one year" resolution.

Likes: Red & black, MLP Equestria Girls, Devi McCallion, Madoka Magica, body mods, Creep series, Jesus Christ Vampire Hunter, & Letterbox!

Hobbies: Movies & film, writing, music hoarding

Stance: Pro recovery, neu conabuse, anti c (for big 3 and other unconsental aspects), pro destigmatization, pro mental health support

I block freely

A few boundaries: Realistically I doubt anybody's gonna read this, but if you do & ur like me- don't send me pictures of any real g0re, any real abvse, anything (real or not) related 2 children possibly or definitely getting harmed, & nvdes or p0rn. That shit's disgusting. If ur recovering from a para I commend u 4 it & u deserve sm love <3 Stay safe out ther, u fvcking freaks.

I'm desperately chasing a purpose to my meaningless existence but each moment I may be freed from it, the person sees me as not being worth it. And then I realize that not only do I long for a purpose, but I also yearn to be worth the effort of inflicting pain.

It used to be a small part of me, then it turned into a defense mechanism- but now I can't turn it back off.

And maybe we could be each other's gods

Paras (not in phillia form cuz it could b confusing)

I wish I had a point.

TW: Charlie Kirk

I need a consentual abuse relationship so badly.

I jus got my septum pierced today at a 12g. Rly disappointed that I hav 2 wait a year & tempted not 2, but my anatomy is janky so I can't fuck around 4 sure. Gonna strech 2 4g in a year. I also streched my ears after getting them checked up by my piercer to 19mm, goal is 25mm/1 inch.