After a year of trying to get another job, I suddenly don't want to anymore, and I'm not sure if this is a false epiphany because I'm just so tired of looking for jobs. Over the past year I've interviewed for, I think, 12 jobs, and gotten offered 2 (obviously that's nothing compared to the number of jobs I've applied for). Offer one is probably not going to be able to accommodate me, and if they did, it would still be in a way that would be really difficult for me. I just wrote them an email formally withdrawing from the job.
I got another offer and...I thought it would be objectively better for me than my current job, and I still think that, but I also just kinda don't want to go? It's similar to my current job and it's a big pay cut. The main thing, though, is that I just suddenly feel so different.
This isn't my ideal job but it has been very clearly demonstrated to me over the past year that I'm not a competitive candidate (not being down on myself; I'm just early career). There are plenty of things I like about it, and there is a lot of benefit to having familiarity with my clients/colleagues. A new job comes with the drawback of being a new job. Plus if I wasn't distracted by trying to interview for other jobs all the time, my job would be easier.
I'm on a couple of county eligible lists (this is too stupid to explain if you don't know what it is) and if I don't get a job through those in the next couple years, I'll start looking again when I'm an LCSW.
I have to chew this over during the weekend and figure out whether this is a stupid decision or not.




















