Music is all around us, just listen

This is my third month in the school, and every single Tuesday and Thursday I have left the school feeling like shit, without fail. So I said “F it” this week and decided to spare myself one day of feeling like garbage. I hope that the sub survives today.

Probably one of the most creative ways to spread Breast Cancer Awareness that I’ve seen in a while.

I have close to no motivation to do anything, it’s been a long time since I’ve had any energy to do anything remotely creative, and as of right now I’m not excited or passionate about anything that’s going to be happening in my life anytime soon. 

Most of my friends have real jobs now, whereas I don’t. I’m subbing in the school district as much as I can, but that won’t even be worth enough to pay off my loans every month, which means I need to find a second job to work once school gets out for the day. 

I’m trapped here until I can find a boarding school job that I can live at, because I can’t afford an apartment on top of my loan payments. 

I’m trying to remain as positive as possible, but the stress is starting to get to me. I have about four months worth of money to pay off my loans in my bank account, and if I don’t have the job situation sorted out by then, then I’m screwed. 

Complaining about it isn’t going to change anything. I know that. I just need the motivation to fix all of my problems first. Maybe I need to set small goals for myself to accomplish everyday. I’m too overwhelmed with the big picture, and I need to be focusing on the smaller things instead. 

Tomorrow, I need to get in contact with people about a second job, and at least I have a promising lead already.