Mondrian

Praying to a god I don't believe in cause wow it just gets worse

Oh no. Ok. No, yeah. I guess. I can do that too. I can ignore my feelings too.

I hate that sensitive feeling around my eyes I get when I cry for a long time cause then everything burns as if it didn't hurt enough.

I need to get out of this house I need some good news

The salt in my tears is tearing my skin off and it all stings

I also scheduled a hair appointment, coincidentally after bad news so. I'm not going to do anything rash at least, that's too expensive anyway

I have a headache

Checking my face in the mirror to see if I look like I've been crying is futile cause of course I do

you just have to accept the fact I will be sad. And you have to let me feel it.

Somehow it always gets worse. Most of the time it's all in my head. Cause my brain is always attacking itself. But right now, it's worse and it's not my brains fault.

Just want everyone to know, they are getting more racist, and so are you. You think you aren't but you are. Remember you can always be woker

I'm avoiding a tan this summer. Unlike every white girl I know with a middle name of, Ann, Marie, Elizabeth, Rose, Grace, Nicole, etc. Cause they all want to be me, they all love to eat my food, and they all want to dress like me, but they don't want me doing it.