Destructive Behaviors

I've lost interest in relationships, not just with women but I don't trust men to do better either as a friend. Both sides keep disrespecting each other, and social media's fake version of people makes it even harder to believe anyone's different underneath. I stopped expecting anything. The feelings I used to protect ten years ago don't feel worth protecting anymore. Connection just isn't where it used to sit on the priority list. We started to look each other as what he/she can provide to me, how can I benefit, instead of just letting go, being vulnerable, discovering each other as natural as possible. We forgot how to be human and this is not where I'm belong nor will spend any effort to fit into this craziness.