new beginnings

From September of 2017 to April 2017, my period had remained for about seven months. Included in that I had my first UTI, which led me to get sicker. Because of those things, my health deteriorated, I gained about 56 pounds (which twenty-six pounds of it I lost), and I was losing so much blood that I passed constantly and couldn’t work properly because of it. My mom herself had to spend 50$+ in buying overnight pads to manage the servers bleeding (I eventually I to wear bladder pads) and also thankfully having help from strangers on here and having those donate things and buy pads off my wishlist.

My depression grew worse than it was usually. Eventually I got see a doctor after months which I hadn’t been able to do until I signed up for Medicaid since it’s very costly to visit the doctor and pay for medicine with the insurance provided by my mama’s , prescribed to birth control which I hadn’t been able take because of the aforementioned reason, I was able to regulate my period to about week (which is this pretty abnormal, at his point I wish for anything manageable). When I pick up the medicine my mothers insurance that I had was listed as my primary insurance and my Medicaid was secondary. While I had thought my mom took me off of her insurance she explained that she too scared of the events going with trump in office, she was fearful I could be dropped from Medicaid. Anyways because of that I sat down with my pharmacist who said she’d waive the cost of the Medicine since I presented the insurance card.

Fast forward to this week. I wake up on Wednesday, I wake up with a pain on my back. I have a pretty poorly set up bed so I ignore it. Around this same day my period seemed to have come off completely and I was happy. Throughout the day I find the pain being unbearable, I end up not eating for majority of the day. I find myself urinating frequently and pain tryin to urinate at that, feeling super dehydrated, by the time it’s 7pm I’m in so much pain my cannot sleep and I lay for hours with a fever of 103.

I suspect it’s a UTI since I have a lot of the symptoms and that I’ve had one before I was unable to go to the urgent care in my city until the next before of my mom’s work—when I got to the urgent care, was diagnosed with a severe UTI, with large amounts of blood in my bladder as well. I get antibiotics, take them go home. My body rejects the medicine, I have terrible cold shivers, vomit trying to take them. I wake up the next day to terrible chest pains and felling my heart beating fast as as dizziness and trouble breathing. I go back to the urgent care for follow and give blood samples as well as a scan of my heart. My results come back that my white blood cell could is extreme high, and that my infection had reached my kidneys. I’m rushed over to the emergency room. I stay from 6 to 11pm—the doctors tell me that since I’m severely anemic from my terrible menstrual cycle, it’s harder for my already weak body to fight the infection. (I’m sorry I only have photos my mom took to send to my brother in NY and my Sister in another city about my body’s condition) I’m left on a iv drip, I’m switched to another set of antibiotics and now I sit here writing this on the notes of my phone after waking out from several hours of sleeping and not being able to keep my fever or food down.

Because my mothers insurance is listed as my primary insurance I have to pay for my medication. Which means I have to pay 30$ for the birth control that literally has saved my life. I’ve tried NURX, a organization that helps women acquire free or low cost birth control, but from what I know they currently don’t serve my area.

Because of the infection I have that has reached my kidneys and my whole life situation in general I’ve had few emotional breakdowns one of which leads me to go hiatus on all my social media accounts. Im sorry to my friends that I’ve disappeared from so suddenly. I’m not okay, emotionally, physically right so I not posting on here or anywhere, but I need help to able to save up for my birth control medicine as well as my inhaler since it’s hard for me to find another job and especially one that doesn’t worsen my body’s current condition.

I have a shop, The Black Velvet Underground https://tictail.com/theblackvelvetunderground where I sell shirts, caps, what have you with a section dedicated of stuff inspired by director wong kar-wai https://tictail.com/theblackvelvetunderground?filter=navigation_id%3Awong-kar-wai-inspired-s. That being said please use paypal to checkout you decide to be nice enough to buy a shirt, and if you’re using a card then select pay with debit/credit card at checkout.

Also my Cash me is $valentinesdean and my venmo is wannabevalentine

I love you all and I’m sorry that I can’t be here right now but it’d be great if y’all can help.

If you have anything that could help me, please send me an email [email protected], I’ll try to check it as often as I can. Again, if you boost, donate or do neither I still thank you for hearing my the current situation I’m going through. I hope y’all have a great day and enjoy the summer with yourselves or ones that you love.

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