Home Remedy for Nose Bleeds

Henri Matisse , 

HOLY SHIT, IT WAS THE ORIGINAL ONE

I am not sorry for who I had to become in order to survive.

And I dream too much and I don’t write enough and I’m trying to find God everywhere.

it has been one of the greatest and most difficult years of my life. i learned everything is temporary. moments. feelings. people. flowers. i learned love is about giving- everything- and letting it hurt. i learned vulnerability is always the right choice because it is easy to be cold in a world that makes it so very difficult to remain soft. i learned all things come in twos: life and death, pain and joy, sugar and salt, me and you. it is the balance of the universe. it has been the year of hurting so bad but living so good, making friends out of strangers, making strangers out of friends, learning [sweet tea] will fix just about everything and for the pains it can’t, there will always be my mother’s arms. We must learn to focus on warm energy, always. soak our limbs in it and become better lovers to the world, for if we can’t learn to be kinder to each other how will we ever learn to be kinder to the most desperate parts of ourselves.

When you can tell your story and it doesn’t make you cry, that’s when you know you’ve healed.