It's so FLUFFY!

Not doing okay. People care but they can’t help in the ways i need, which often feels like me forever turning down this i don’t need and explaining that I’m grateful regardless.

This world is too hard and I want to lay softly in your arms.

I always tell people to ask for help and they should and I should keep asking for help.

I am not doing okay in a loop of being blamed for someone’s problems and being told about their violent fantasies about me. This person days it is scaring them too and is trying to work on it. However, i don’t have the best support system here. I don’t even know who i can reach out to and there is fear they will report him, which might men either him going to the hospital where he says the loss of income will mean losing his home or that if they didn’t make him go he would be so angry at me for trying to get him help because it might result in that that he might get angrier.

Somebody told me they want to kill me today.