My brain is like Inside Out but instead of five emotions it's five raccoons with mental disorders. We write MCU Fanfiction and hyperfixate over Bucky Barnes. Gender-fluid they/them A drabble a day keeps the plot bunnies at bay. Prompt my next one below⬇️
I am Fivecrazyraccoons. You can call me Mad. I’m about to be 30, neurodivergent, queer, gender-fluid, and use they/them, pronouns. I have a hyperfixation with the MCU overall (but mostly Cap and Bucky) that borders insanity. I started reading fanfic around summer/fall of last year and started writing in the October last year when the ideas hit me and won’t go away.
I have many opinions about a lot of things to do with the MCU and will talk at length if you let me (please let me).
Most of my writing follows canon with my headcanons for what happens off-screen and in their heads. I do have miscellaneous works that are AUs and such, but I’m not presently working on them seriously. I like diving deep into characters and relationships and less on huge extravagant plots.
I’ve recently started writing drabbles (and doubles and triples) from scenes that inspire me and it’s helped get some ideas out without starting another grand project. I think it would be a fun challenge to take prompts for drabbles based on scenes or lines, so send them my way!
I also like to talk queer and trans things, neurodivergent things, Legos (I recently built the Avengers tower), and yarn crafts.
See here for my Stucky fic rec list
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See raccoon explanation below
Imagine the Pixar movie Inside Out, but all the brain workers are feral raccoons. The five in headquarters are not based on emotions, but various things relating to my neurodivergencies. Three of them have names. I’m still coming up with the other two.
Autism raccoon - what it says. They have many sensory issues, tend to take things very literally, don’t love being thrown into social situations, and have very strong opinions. Still needs a name.
PDA raccoon - he’s got pathological demand avoidance/pervasive drive for autonomy. A really overly-simplified explanation is an extreme version of “don’t tell me what to do.” It is much more than that though. Something as little as a suggestion or something I’ve told myself I plan to do can set him off and he will be upset and refuse to do anything. Prone to setting off the other raccoons. He was born of trauma and lack of autonomy. His name is Rocket (yes after GOTG Rocket)
ADHD raccoon - he’s got trouble focusing and is easily distracted unless we get into tunnel vision and then he will keep me working on the same thing for HOURS. He craves social interaction and just wants to talk about his hyperfixations. His name is Bubbles (after the fish in Finding Nemo). Pretty sure Bubbles is the one that chases the plot bunnies.
BPD raccoon - thankfully pretty dormant lately. But when set off he splits and it’s really not fun. He’s prone to being mean as a really bad self-sabotaging coping mechanism. He is named Stitch because he was only created to destroy but also he kind of just wants to be loved and cuddled
Masking raccoon - she’s tired. She focuses on making me act relatively normal in public so I don’t accidentally say offensive things or make faces that make people think I’m upset. We’re working on giving her a break. But as a late-diagnosed AFAB that’s spent years working with the public in a way that I have to play their game, it’s hard. She also doesn’t have a name.
It seems kind of crazy, but this has really helped me analyze my brain, my feelings, and why I may be acting or reacting a certain way. If I can identify which raccoon is in control, I can better determine my own needs. I am also convinced that everyone has brain animals (whether they’re all the same or multiple head animals) and most of my neurospicy friends love this theory and have adopted it. We ask each other a deeper level of “how are you doing” by saying things like “how are the squirrels today?” And communicate when we’re not doing so great by saying things like “the raccoons are on something today.” For me it also separates out sometimes how I don’t WANT to be feeling a certain way and sometimes I know my thoughts are not rational, but I can’t help it in the moment.
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So hearing It's a Been a Long, Long Time used to piss me off because of the Steggy appropriation but since reclaiming it as Steve and Bucky's first dance song from their wedding in Perfect Moments it makes me feel kinda warm and fuzzy.
So hearing It's a Been a Long, Long Time used to piss me off because of the Steggy appropriation but since reclaiming it as Steve and Bucky's first dance song from their wedding in Perfect Moments it makes me feel kinda warm and fuzzy.
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I told myself I wasn’t going to do another monthly writing challenge. Here we are though.
When Bucky first brought up moving in with Sam the last time he was in Delacroix he really was only joking.
Now, sitting alone in his still empty Brooklyn apartment, he thought more seriously about it.
he considered how he felt around Sam—relaxed and safe. He thought about the way Sam looked at him—all warm brown eyes and soft smiles.
In the chilly New York autumn it was easy to long for Louisiana and a strong embrace.
He packed a bag with the essentials and booked the next flight to New Orleans. he would take the first step.
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Day 1 of @monthlywritingchallenges Trust August: first step
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
I’ve decided this will be a drabble a day and it will all be part of one continuous story. Have I planned out anything else? Nope. Do I know where anything is going? Also nope. We’ll see together. With that, title, rating, and tags are subject to change. Radios is very SamBucky, but I do think we will see some Steve. Idk.
Sam was on the couch watching mindless TV when his phone rang. He smiled at the caller ID. “What’s up, Buck?”
“So, I was thinking maybe we should move in together.”
No preamble.
Sam was speechless.
“You still there, man?” Bucky said.
“Yeah. I’m still here, Buck. Do you think that maybe you should ask me on a date before asking me to move in with you? Hold on, there’s someone knocking.”
Sam felt the smile stretch across his face as he opened the door.
“Sam, will you do me the honor of going out on a date with me?”
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Day 2 of @monthlywritingchallenges Trust August: taking a chance
“Hey, man, I gotta go. There’s a hot super soldier at the door and he wants to take me on a date,” Sam said into the phone. Bucky didn’t need to see his face to know he was smiling.
“Do I have competition?” Bucky said, pocketing his phone.
“Get over here,” Sam said, opening his hands and spreading his arms. He was leaning against the doorframe girl Bucky showing up unannounced, with out-of-the-blue proposals was the most casual thing in the world.
Bucky couldn’t help the smile as he stepped into Sam’s open arms. He sighed happily into Sam’s embrace.
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Day 3 of @monthlywritingchallenges Trust August: open hands
the idea AI and technology more broadly should NOT be used to “predict” criminality used to be such a mainstream and accepted position that it was literally the plot of Captain America: The Winter Soldier. I know people may not remember this, since the popular memory of that film is mostly that Sebastian Stan as The Winter Soldier looks hot and sad and looks cool as fuck when he kills people. However, I really need people to remember this because it's making me insane when I remember that the main plot of that movie is Steve Rogers discovering that a group of fascists are behind an AI program that is going to be used by the US government to “predict” if a crime is going to occur and eliminate the potential perpetrators before the crime even happens. And in response to that discovery, the heroes of that movie, as in the people you the audience are meant to align with, choose to become enemies of the state over allegiance to a government that would use fascist-designed predictive technology. Again, that was such a mainstream and accepted position that even Captain America himself was against it. But now…but now...ha. Just over 10 years later, you have Palatir, Stargate LLC, Oracle, Open AI - all these massive software companies run by some of the richest, most openly fascist fuckers on Earth - and they're all being awarded massive government and military contracts around the world to further develop generative tech to weaponise on mass populations. In places like Palestine, that's already been a reality for many years. But there's no meaningful resistance to the rise in power of these companies or this tech. In fact, most people are giddily feeding this tech their data in exchange for a perceived convenience. Motherfuckers use chatgpt to ask whether they should scratch their ass, and to think for them at higher and higher rates and we know how that data will be used because those tech companies openly brag about it with the president of United States. And….. please, please, can anyone hear me??? it used to be so agreed upon that all this was bad that a CAPTAIN AMERICA MOVIE funded by the US military no less told you it was bad. How far things come, huh (derogatory)
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When did I start writing so much smut and when did it get so dirty? I've written the filthiest shit of my life today and I'm brainstorming with my beta who is just praying to whatever raccoon is responsible for this
I like how technically post-serum Steve is supposed to be 6'2" so he should be 2" taller than Bucky, but we've thrown that out the window and they're generally just portrayed at the same height.
Because Chris Evans and Sebastian Stan are both 6' and it seems like a lot of work for a 2" height difference, so I don't blame anyone, but I still find it funny.
I have personally generally accepted 6' Steve instead of 6'2" Steve. Especially because it means that Loki at an actual 6'2" is taller than him and that's fun when you throw him into the mix.
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I told myself I wasn’t going to do another monthly writing challenge. Here we are though.
When Bucky first brought up moving in with Sam the last time he was in Delacroix he really was only joking.
Now, sitting alone in his still empty Brooklyn apartment, he thought more seriously about it.
he considered how he felt around Sam—relaxed and safe. He thought about the way Sam looked at him—all warm brown eyes and soft smiles.
In the chilly New York autumn it was easy to long for Louisiana and a strong embrace.
He packed a bag with the essentials and booked the next flight to New Orleans. he would take the first step.
~~~~~~~~
Day 1 of @monthlywritingchallenges Trust August: first step
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
I’ve decided this will be a drabble a day and it will all be part of one continuous story. Have I planned out anything else? Nope. Do I know where anything is going? Also nope. We’ll see together. With that, title, rating, and tags are subject to change. Radios is very SamBucky, but I do think we will see some Steve. Idk.
Sam was on the couch watching mindless TV when his phone rang. He smiled at the caller ID. “What’s up, Buck?”
“So, I was thinking maybe we should move in together.”
No preamble.
Sam was speechless.
“You still there, man?” Bucky said.
“Yeah. I’m still here, Buck. Do you think that maybe you should ask me on a date before asking me to move in with you? Hold on, there’s someone knocking.”
Sam felt the smile stretch across his face as he opened the door.
“Sam, will you do me the honor of going out on a date with me?”
~~~~~~~~
Day 2 of @monthlywritingchallenges Trust August: taking a chance
