help a disabled nonbinary asian lesbian not have to spend even their late 20s in an all-around abusive and ableist home and without any reliable/accountable community to turn to.
it’s really something to be told over and over by essentially your extended abusive family AND any local community resources you’ve tentatively reached out to over the years, that your struggles with familial abuse and trauma and disability are just you trying to hurt yourself and your family. not only is it unsafe for me to actively seek out any domestic violence or womens’ help or specific trauma informed care/resources, there just aren’t that many available nor will i be believed. it genuinely kills me inside that i’ve ended up fixating on something ‘extreme’ and ‘drastic’ to remove myself from all this ongoing pain in hopes of creating a new better life for myself, by moving to the us and cutting off my family, when in general, this would not even guarantee my safety and stability. to lessen my chances of endangering myself and of ‘forcing’ my incredibly manipulative and creepy family to take me back if they find out i’m struggling without them, i’m trying to be more informed and prepared, including with financial cushion, as it’s highly likely i won’t be able to job hunt and work as soon as i settle in, due to my conditions.
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goal of moving out by summer/fall 2022 is still the same, whereas the goal for funds is just...trying to save up as much as i can. there’s expenses i’ve had to cover with donation money and i imagine there will be more as i start taking a few classes and discreetly arranging things for my escape. thank you for all the support.
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