As terrible as I feel for Nikki throughout obsession (a different, not better or worse but different, movie would have the movie told by her, flashes in and out of consciousness, taken over by one entity and under the will of somebody she trusted and loved), I also feel so so bad for the other Nikki. She’s born to love Bear, but she isn’t born to actually like him - she can’t even say that she likes him! She loves him but has to change him: has to cut his hair, has to protect him from other women and not let him have friends, can’t leave him for a second. She loves him more than he loves her because that's how she was made and all he does is ask her to change when he made her that way. She doesn’t even know who Nikki IS. She's trying so hard but she doesnt know how to be human, never mind be Nikki. Even if it wasn’t his initial intention, even if he didn’t mean to make her that way, he fucking did it to her! And knows it isn’t her!!! He begs her to be a different person, the person he wants, but he refuses to let her go when he cant even love her!!
There’s multiple parts in the movie where I can’t tell which Nikki is which - which Nikki wrote that story? Which Nikki cooked the cat? Which Nikki cowers from him in the bedroom? They all seem like the Other Nikki in some ways but like - why would she do that? Why would she feed him his cat if not just malice? Why is she writing incest if not as an outlet to how she considered Bear a brother? why does she run scared from him and refuse to look at him, covering up with a vase (i do think this example isnt the strongest tbf bc i can understand another motivation but still)? Is other Nikki threatening to kill herself when he tries to sleep at Ian's so he doesnt leave or does she know that the other Nikki will try to kill herself if she's alone? Is that why she’s paralysed when he leaves?? can't go to the bathroom where the medication is? Is that's what's happening to her body??
Anyway I really liked obsession but i don’t think I’ll ever be able to rewatch it fully
