not entirely here

i dont know WHERE the fuck my original intro went and only just realized its gone so i guess we're doing this again

hello!!! you can call me fishiestickie [though if you know me personally, you know what my name actually is]

rest of the intro under the read more cuz its long [PLEASE actually read this tho]:

dont mind the text. i was Conversing with someone

but anyway... ouggghhhh these guys have been rotting my brai n lately i love them so so mcuhhh ueheheeje

ok dawtde spoilers actually

only a dumb child would just act like this and not understand that fiction is ya know. fiction

why good riddance

"the fuck is wrong with you" dude

why do the opinions of a fifteen year old matter so much to you LMFAOOO

https://www.tumblr.com/writingdose/812677072273260544/this-used-to-be-a-common-knowledge-via-ao3tikli?source=share

just double checking if I should block you

probably will

we both were friends on a site called drawaria. my name was like sadboi or something, their name was like cinnamon [again VERY unsure of this.] i think we used to draw together sometimes, just us in one room. we maybe roleplayed too but im not sure. i dont remember many of their ocs but i remember two of mine: one was blaze - this big kind of dragon guy... he was black with red and orange eyes and had horns and only front legs, he didnt have any back legs the back half of his body was like a snake kind of - and another one was blue - a blue cat person who had an eye that looked like a cross/star. i dont remember exactly the things we used to do or why we stopped being friends but i think it was bc i was mad at them for some probably stupid reason? idk it was YEARS ago i was a kid. i think it was like... i got all pissed off at them bc they wanted to talk to me about something when i was drawing with another friend of mine... i THINK that was it but idk.

please. please. their name was like cinnamon or something close to that their avatar was like a fox i think. if ANYONE sees this post PLEASE PLEASE REBLOG or at least like. i dont know how else im supposed to find this person it's been years. i dont know if theyre okay. i can only hope theyre still active SOMEWHERE on the internet, again please reblog or like or comment or share or SOMETHING I DONT KNOW please if this sounds at all familiar or if anyone knows anything about anybody that might have been involved in this please dont ignore this post please.

MOREEEE MALEVOLENT!!!!!!!!!

i'm in the middle of like ep 41 rn im so insane

john is real fun to draw. ha ha

just some more johnny boy doodles.... he is so Shape!!!!

it's the 1930s dude nobody knows what that word means yet

what if i was the voice in your head and i Looked at you. Huh. What would you do about That? Nothing I bet.

fucking around with his design. this was made after most of the other drawings

this is basically what he said during that one part where arthur got stabbed and almost died right I ALSO finished my kayne design but. he is covered in blood from like the knees down [though it's rather undetailed] so it will be at the End, under the read more.

no comment. bald

okay stuff w/ blood/gore under here

Im not over 25 ( a minor too) but im just curious

@fishiestickie-thoughts

i'll learn all sorts of things. i'll be right where i want to be in my art. i'll have a job that i like. in my free time i'll do online art commissions and draw whatever people want me to; i'll 3d model; i'll take walks in the evening and enjoy the scenery; i'll make music; i'll make little bracelets and sell those, too.

i'll dress how i want as well. i'll get money, and buy all the things i want to wear, little accessories and cool clothes; i'll buy all the things i've wanted to own in general, really. i'll be this cool person in their twenties who doesn't care about what anyone else thinks of what they look like, about what anyone else thinks of what they do or say, about anything anyone else thinks. this cool person, whos so free and able to finally just do whatever they want, after so long.

i'll have all sorts of new interests. i'll never let go of fandom culture; i'll be just as immersed into whatever i end up liking later in life as i am now. i'll look back at the interests i have currently; i'll look back, and remember how i wondered what my next favorite thing might be. i'll remember how easily i would get so attached to a new media, and how i'd get sad over letting my last interest fade, letting it sit quietly in the back of my head, only occasionally revisited.

i'll be so much better, too. i'll think about other people more often, about what they want to do instead of just doing what i want to do; i'll be less careless and unwilling; i'll think about what things might hurt people, what things i might regret doing later. i'll be so unlike i am now. i'll still have my moments, where i sit in quiet places and think back to how i used to be, feeling guilt pool in my stomach and eat away at me from the inside for hours; but i'll be at peace knowing i'm not like that anymore.

there will too be times, where i think back to how my living situation used to be; and i'll be glad it's not that way anymore. i'll think back to my life from those years: how that life carved away at my will to keep going with it's teeth; how it snarled at me so many times and made me feel so stupid and made me question if it was really worth it to wait until i was an adult; how it was so cruel to a teenager just trying to not kill themselves. i'll remember how i questioned so much if i was really justified in how much i hated everything.

i won't have to worry about any of that, though, when i grow up. when i grow up, and i'm so much cooler, so much better than i am now. at least, i hope so.

testings of my newer john design. ha ha. i think he looks much better now

me and my little fragment of myself

some stuff [kind of] based on that one part in episode... 23 i think. maybe 24? idk its whatever. you guys know what part im talking about

also wip kayne design i think kayne is funny i like him

so guess what i started listening to

[IVE ONLY FINISHED LIKE PART 12 GUYS NO SPOILERS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. PLEASE]