mi-ae

Something he longs for, maybe something ideal for him, a hope he has for better circumstances. Which also means he's in a situation he can't escape (Being the person's he loves the most and thinks that hates him, yorishiro. Being Amane's yorishiro). A situation that makes him feel hurt, a situation that he's struggling with and he wants to break free from it.

But then Nene joins in and they sing along!!! He's looking upward and ahead with a soft gaze, with a gentle smile. He also shows more of his deepest feelings in his face, the sadness but also the good memories from when he was alive, he was reminiscing about the past.

And at the same time it's a face of hope, a face of someone soon to be in a better situation, a face of someone about to be free from the chains someone else put on him. To me, it was his personal farewell before he disappears. Before Nene destroys him. His face shows it all.

I think it's one of the very few times that Tsukasa let himself to feel, he let his feelings show: Pain, hope, nostalgia and enjoyment. He was genuinely having fun singing along with Nene, he opened up a bit, he was so comfortable to express himself and Nene also got relaxed to sing along with him.

They shared something they really liked in common, that is, to sing and they did it together. It was a personal, meaningful moment between them in which he showed his innermost emotions through his facial expression, through the lyrics of the song, through his behaviour. That was unexpected and enchanting.

And I link this hope to this scene. Apart from granting Amane's wish, to bring happiness to him, to bring better circumstances for him with his ultimate sacrifice, there's his hope to disappear, to finally be free from his painful situation.

It's something really sad, his hope for himself in his current circumstances in the original timeline. He longs to be free even if it means to disappear.