𖤓 finley 𖤓

in another reality you are someone's comfort character. people say you are fake/fictional, but someone argues that you are real. they want nothing more than to shift so they could meet you. a hug from you would be soul healing. when times are tough and they don't have anybody to hug, you are the person they imagine.

you are the reason someone survived going through the depths of hell and back, just purely from the hope they get when thinking about you/ knowing that one day they can meet you. you are the reason someone keeps going. the reason someone decides not to give up.

you are somebody's kinnie. when they see you, they are reminded that they are not alone, and that someone out there understands what they are going through. someone understands what YOU are going through.

i’m begging you to never ever give up on shifting. it found you for a reason. you deserve to shift. you deserve to experience what those realities offer to you. it is worth it. if you’ve lost motivation or feel yourself running out of it, please just be reminded that you owe it to yourself, the you now and the you that was so fucking excited to learn what shifting was. the you that realized all you dreams can be true. 

you deserve to be loved by someone fully. someone devoted only ever to you. someone who loves you loudly and unapologetically. someone who loves you as easy as they breath. someone who cares about the little things. someone who would do anything for you. someone who knows all your favorite things. someone who knows the things you don’t like and why you don’t like them. someone obsessed with you in the way that you’re obsessed with them. someone who goes out of their way for you and would do everything to reach you.

you deserve friends that stick up for you. friends that listen to you. friends you can trust and that can trust you. friends that will answer a call from you no matter the time. friends that know how to cheer you up. friends who make you laugh. friends who make you feel included. friends that make you feel valued. 

you deserve family. not family only by blood, but family by love. a family that loves you. a family you love. a family that treats you correctly. a family that cares for you. a family that respects you and your opinions. a family willing to do anything and everything for you. a family that would go to war for you.

the capitalism brain worms need to be eradicated right fucking now.

small reminder to everyone else as well, pls don't let the hard work hustle mindset that society is violently implanting into people stop you from scripting things that make your life easier and more, idk, fucking liveable??

you're completely worthy of an easy, stress-free life and just because earth in this reality is unfortunately run by a bunch of greedy lunatics that convince regular people that they must work and suffer until they die while they sit and mooch off of said work like a fucking parasite and do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO CONTRIBUTE OR MAKE THINGS BETTER, doesn't mean your dr has to be the same and you can literally do whatever you want to improve your life and others if you so please.

most of the time this is okay, and i bask in the quiet. i make myself a new and fancy recipe. i bake treats for my dog. i take environmentally-shameful-length showers. i often like being alone. i like to sit and have the world hold me in a palm like a mercury spill.

but then the small things. i kind of want to see one of the touring broadway shows. or a particular movie. i just want to tangle my legs into someone else's while we eat popcorn and talk about our favorite types of tea or something. it's not that i can't handle any of this by myself - i do, i am happy doing so - but i sometimes cut the orange in half and wish i could peel it for a second person.

i am cheerfully and chipperly informed that all things can be fun and exciting by yourself. i am reminded that loving myself should be the first and foremost goal. i am jokingly informed that if i just hold out, my wife will appear in the clouds as if i wished for her - but that i shouldn't drive myself crazy by looking. i ground myself in my incredible friends and support. i do it all the "right" way.

similarly, the hive's love for carol is of a biological imperative. they love her simply because they can't help it. it is an instinct, it's what they were made to do. it's unconditional in its worst form. unchanging, unevolving. and they want to fix her too, don't care what she really wants because they've decided they know best.

helen made a choice, to love carol. she kept making that choice for 20+ years, even when it wasn't easy. she didn't intend to fix carol, but she wanted to help her, to push her to be better, because that's what a good relationship is. and she knew how to do that, how to stop her from going too far, from hurting herself. she didn't claim there was something wrong with carol, and certainly not that she was the solution, but she wasn't enabling her either.

manousos, too, is making a choice. to cross a continent and risk his life to meet her. to not leave when it isn't easy, to stick around for her so she can eventually choose him too.