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“She didn’t need to be saved. She needed to be found and appreciated for exactly who she was.”
— j. iron word

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Anw, happy birthday! Hope you had a great day. May you be filled with lots of happiness, good health and barakah always. Meet up soon
- Nadiah, bff. Thank you.
"Thankful for Dad yang sanggup angkut barang berat and belikan Mala Crayfish kegemaran I."
"Thankful for myself sebab ada $50 untuk hargai penat lelah Dad."
I was going crazy with the breastmilk, you fcuker!
-i shouted angrily at him. About our late night argument about breastmilk vs formula.
Then he replied, "But did you tell me?"
How was i supposed to tell you when i told you that day that im planning to stop breastmilk? Remember what you replied? You said "Ok make sure got my money's worth sell the breast pump parts".
It wasnt about why i stop. It was all about you and your money's worth.
What i wanted to send to you. I was alright after writing this letter...
But we fight again in the plane. So i dont think i be sending this to him. Becuse whats on the plane was some of the things me tioned here.
Biarlah takpe simpan for xoxo kenangan. Hehe 🫠
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Dear sayang, lover, husband,
Maybe sometimes talking doesnt helps us. It may become more worse and hurtful.
I hope you know that everytime we argue, it makes me sad and hurtful. I dont want to gaduh though. It alwaysncuts me deep and i cant help to cry out
O cant believe yoj said that kt was a croco dile teara. Just because you cannot cry is it?
If its crocodile tears why do my feelings.hurt and i cry? I hope you valid my feelings too.
Sometimes i wish i can speak like elysha. How she is so soft spoken in words. -well i may not know her well.. but i like it, the soft words. I hope i can be gentle and latiff too. Towards you, us and myself.
You know, theres a quote saying a husband is the leader of the house. The best of husband is the best to his wife.
I know you did (and is trying too). Which is good, alhamdulillah i do see the effort, the few weeks after the "crocodile tears" and the day we found baby crawled from the living room towards the master bedroom crying for us two
But you know i wish you could continue to be more patient and consistent in your efforts too.
It makes me wonder, why am i jarsh or not gentle or latiffs towards you? The saying says a wife mirrors their husband. Its a reflection of hoq the husband treats the wife. I hope you can be more nicer towards me. Just like the effort you always do towards your mum, i hope you give me your priorities and efforts towards me too. Which sorry to say it lacks.
So i said just now, that how you treat others, your friends, colleagues and outside is different than how youve treated me. Different. Arent you supposed to be the same person outside and inside (the one closest to you and married you?). Because if not, its in
congruent. I hope you continuosly steadfast treat me woth kindness and latiffs. I noticed that the word Sayang when you called .e is not regularly as last time (like ya i know because we gaduh and you menyampah with me).
You said whats with our relationship. Of course we're a married couple. A husband and wife. We cant be a room mate. And i dont want us to be just a room mate- i dont want us to be the the hey, hi or just talk about baby only instead i want it to be about us, how we're feelings, thinking, planning, random conversations and all.
If theres nothing for us, then why we're together right? Yea that may be true but its a wrong approach of thinking i feel.
To me, even if theres nothing... We stay! Because of Allah swt. Remember we said we wanting to marry each other because we wanting to complete half of our deen? So yes, Lillahi taa'la.
You know everytime we gaduh.. even the smallest feeling such as that time im angry and we gaduh and my feelings haywire until nak buat laundry pun omgg- remember that time i basuh baju you and i letak tepi taknak fold, or the time i only wash my clothes instead of yours- yea i know me petty-.. so yeah i had to kept reminding myself.. Lillah hi taa'la. I do it because of Allah. May Allah reward me. And when Allah rewards me i know he will give us a jalan keluar and perbaiki hubungan kita.
So yeah.. no matter menyampah, angry or sad... turn to Allah. So yeah. Of coz i/we try lah. But yeah.. eventhough there will be times of cebisan of sarcasm, criticism or hurt words still being said.
I hope and do not want to cry anymore. Sometimes talking with you i say one thing you say another thing. Like cant you just validated my feelings first? Idk i felt that whenever we gaduh selalu topic will be all over the place. So for me its hard to keep track or answer.
Theres alot of things i wabted tomsay to you like how i felt that day when your family comes and how we can go about it, or how if elt the day we went rumah your mum and me sleepingkan the baby and her remarks. Its just that sometimes when wanting to talk about this, its ada lah tak kene, like its so hard talking to you and you being defensive -of coz ah defensive i understand, but yeaaa thats the thing. I hope that soon we can discuss our relation ship goals, what we both wants, the expectations and the latiffs- yes ok insyaAllah. (Dont come to me harp again saying that time you wanted but i dont want. Its not that i dont want.. just that at that point in the ferry we were on vacation it wasnt in my mind to talk it out. And to me i thought that time, that year we're ok so yeah might not needed 'the' talk).
Is it bad if i were to say, you kerje keras² with lots of effort, tapi your efforts dalam menjaga your wife hati and perasaan mana? Ah ni sangat crude eh to say? Sorry hais. And then that vicous cycle will make me even more spiral. Entah eh.. is it because i tak healing well ke ape. Hahs and thats howni ckme about whenever i angry at you i will definitely spe t your money even more. Anyway it helps my mental abit ah me spending your mo ey so thankyou fke giving me your cards. Alhamdulillah. Semoga the more i soend your money the mkre ah berikan you rezeki lebih.
Ok nampak nye Captain flight dah suruh kene prepare for boarding. So begitulah ny feeljngs and kata²
So yeahh im sorry, pleae forgives me for my kesalahan and kata² yang tak latiff.
Oh yea, and im sorry for hurting your feelings too.
"Just because im not crying and eyes swollen doesnt mean im hurt". Doesnt mean im crying means it was a crocodile tears too. Right back you..! ;) okk sorry ni tak latiff. So yeah sorry. Both of us have different crying mechanism so yeah.
Cause hey, you are my husband and i am your wife, we're a team. We're a family. And thats why ita called marriage. Obviously, we're married and no turning back.
-sorry got typos. And words can be jumbled up. But this just what comes across my mind and i had to write it down before the words flew away. Didnt read/edit back my words thorughly. So yeah.
At a point in this lette/text it maybseem that its all about you-you, me-me kinda faults. But ahh yaa... i know i do have my fault and my shortcomings i admit that. And yeah cutting you off and replying while you talking pissed you off, but i hope you know that its just me my character. And you also i k ow your character dont like to be cut off midway sentence.
Anyway, i hope and oray it be a good trip for us. Now not justbus 2. Its 3 of us, our newest family and baby in the house.
Rababana hablana min azwajina wa zurriya ti qurrata a'yun. Wa jaalana lil mu taqina ima.aa.
May Allah grant us sakinah, mawaddah and rahmah in our rumahtangga marriage amin.
Xoxo,
Asyura
0847hrs 12Jan2026

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Hie love,
Today our baby crawled.for the first time acrually. And quite a distance.
While we were arguing in the master bedroom and she was at the living room, apparently she crawled all the way towards our room alley. MasyaAllah.
I was wow masyaAllah. Terharu.
Im sorry baby for arguing. I dont want to fight infront of you baby.
Whats sad was i was in tears while youre infront looking at me. Im sorry.
Hie love.
It felt that youre moving on.
While im not moving.
Hie love.
I found this song. And it makes me think..
What do you wanna be?
-I wanna be kind. Be kind again.
I wanna be soft again.
Im sorry. Yal latiff. ❤️
Hie baby
Urghh noooo. We are meant to be.

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This kinda made my day. Felling a lot better now. Thanks for that. ❤️
I was pretty sure I was gonna get rickrolled but I guess not
Safe to reblog! 😊❤
I don’t know about anyone else, but some days this is what you need to hear. Keep moving forward, you’re strong and you are awesome! <3
This is lovely!
why is that exactly what i needed to hear?????
It’s literally so relatable to me right now! It’s what I needed! So thanks so much for that :)
Thanks I am going through a roller coaster of good days and bad days and this is what I needed
Awwwsd you're so sweet. Thank you for the positivity ✍️🙂↕️🌟
2 Dec 2025, writing here at 1.10am.
Hie love,
Sometimes i find myself spiralling downwards.
I cried just now while selawat. Hmm.
I read someone posted in IG. Saying, 'dont wish for yourself Fall or sickness, Love yourself.'
So the story said that the wife felt lonely (not talking (in their marriage, was abuse, or rocky marriage) and then she wishes that she was sick so that maybe if she was sick her husband will pay attention to her and it will all get better. So she doa and eventually prayed Tahajjud. Afterwards Allah showed her that her Husband wasnt meant for her and they divorced. After the divorce, one day, the woman found that she had Cancer. Nauzubillah minzalik.
So yeah this story shows the power of doa. The power of holding on to hope, positivity and, having faith in Allah. And most importantly to love your self!
OK! Im gonna love my self. Hieee love ❤️ 😍 hehe.
What i did today 1dec?
By the way i realised, these 2 days, today 1 Dec and yesterday, somehow im very energetic and productive yeayy me! Might be im at my late luteal phase? Hehe.
Today 1 Dec:
1. I washed the clothes, dry, hang and fold.
2. I played with baby, she laughed and screeched just now. It was so cute.
3. I fed her potato puree. Alhamdulillah she managed to almost finish all.
4. I cleaned the house. Did a reset house just now.
5. Salam my husband and made him kissed my forehead when he go out to work in the morning.
6. Able to make baby sleep tonight.
7. I enjoyed talking with my friends Ayu and Ierah today.
8. I felt grateful that my friends gifts me baby's gift. Alhamdulillah.
9. I prayed to Allah so that my husband achieved his MDRT 2026 qualification award.
10. I dzikir Astarghfirullah and Selawat today. And read 1 page of the AL-Quran. Yeay me. Alhamdulillah.
What do i wish?
1. I wish i could communicate, have quality timw and amazing conversation time with him. Effective good communication. I missed laughters the spontaneity.
2. I wish we could be like lovebirds , like we used to before back in the old days, before the fights and arguments happen.
3. I wish i was more kind, latiff and wadud towards him, conversation and situations.
4. I wish i am more consistent in my productivity, just like today or even more.
5. I wish not to be hurt or cry anymore.
6. I wish to love my self and body. Of course lose weight and be more prettier.
Hehe. Writing this makes me cry again. Huhu.
Okay, xoxo.
I feel that i should stop expecting. To prevent dissapointment.
Sayang,
You better be careful okay...
Bila wanita menjadi independence dan tidak mengharapkan anda, thats when everything ends. Youre not needed anymore.
- hmm random thoughts/quotes.
Anyway, choose kindness? Hmm insyaAllah.
Ya Latiff ❤️
Hi love,
I need to let go of these sadness and resentment.
Yaa muqallibul qulub tsabbits qolbi a'la diiniik

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Today, i miss my baby M a little more today. </3
1. To me, family is important to me. Their valuable to me
Just like today, dad texted and said he wanna come my house. Bringing food and drinks for me, i so terharu. Because if not for him buying proper meal/food for me, i guess i will just be eating (subway) sandwich only the whole day. So yeah.
Then the impromptu my mum and sis came. I could come to their house in 1 or 2 days because either of us need to visit each other to give the things exchanged/taken wrongly. Like my breastmilk, lekor etc is with mum, while mum' telur herbal and to give sis her spf sunscreen. Soo today timing was perfect. When my mum and sis come, i didn't know that they didn't know that dad is at my house (coz when they come, dad was at prayer room). Lol. Oh and how sweet mum is to gorengkan the keropok lekor. Awws. Oh and she gives me her homamade sambal blend yeay! I'm thinking if i got more time i wish to cook sambal telur burung besok. InsyaAllah amin.
Ohh ya, and the impromptu going to my lil bro's house. Hehehe. It was heart warming eventhough for a short while.
Ohh ya, yesterday mum, sis and me went to jb. It was a valuable memory i cherishes too. So Alhamdulillah.
2. Need to start sewing. Gotta go buy the jersey fabric material. Please i plan to do it tmr, Thursday.
3. Ohh need to visit bff house to get my pump part which drop at her house. And give the milk to her. Hopefully i be going her house Thursday tmr.
4. Today i did well. As in accomplished. I managed to clean the house yeay. Oh and did laundry too.
Oh smlm after home from jb, i slept like 3am plus. Idk where the burst of energy to clean up the house. Smlm eventhough i don't need to clean up (because i felt that it should be him to clean up), but nvm... just think ok let's do this for lillahi taa'la.
Oh and i manage to clean up my vanity area. Nice.
5. I need to take care of my skin, my face. As i have dry skin. Since yesterday i spent $420 on a full set of skin care. Hahaha hopefully it be worth it.
6. Our new master bedroom bed will be arriving in 1-2 weeks, its a king size bed. While the current is a queen bed.
Kinda feel abit sad that the new Queen bedsheet that i/we got won't be able to use. Hee. Oh well, im thinking i'll give the new worn bedsheet to mum then. Hehe.
7. My mind today is better compared to a few days ago of being so emotional and sad. Might be hormones too that droves me high and low. Lol.