In: Dust of Dreams, Malazan the book of the fallen
After a long moment, Brys returned his attention to the canal waters below. âThis all flows out to the river, and the river into the sea, and out in the sea, the silts collected back here end up raining down to the bottom, down on to the valleys and plains that know no light. Sometimes,â he added, âsouls take the same journey, and they rain down, silent, blind. Lost.â âYou two keep this up,â Cuttle said in a growl, âand Iâll do the jumping.â Fiddler snorted. âSapper, listen to me. Itâs easy to listen and even easier to hear wrongly, so pay attention. Iâm no wise man, but in my life Iâve learned that knowing somethingâseeing it clearlyâ offers no real excuse for giving up on it. And when you put what you see into words, give âem to somebody else, that ainât no invitation neither. Being optimisticâs worthless if it means ignoring the suffering of this world. Worse than worthless. Itâs bloody evil. And being pessimistic, well, thatâs just the first step on the path, and itâs a path that might take you down Hoodâs road, or it takes you to a place where you can settle into doing what you can, hold fast in your fight against that suffering. And thatâs an honest place, Cuttle.â âItâs the place, Fiddler,â said Brys, âwhere heroes are found.â But the sergeant shook his head. âThat donât matter one way or the other. It might end up being as dark as the deepest valley at the bottom of your ocean, Commander Beddict. You do what you do, because seeing true doesnât always arrive in a burst of light. Sometimes what you see is black as a pit, and it just fools you into thinking that youâre blind. Youâre not. Youâre the opposite of blind.â And he stopped then, as he saw that heâd made both hands into fists, the knuckles pale blooms in the gathering night. Brys Beddict stirred. âI will see the crews sent out to the imperial well tonight, and I will roust my healers at once.â He paused, and then added, âSergeant Fiddler. Thank you.â But Fiddler could find nothing to be thanked for. Not in his memories, not in the words he had spoken to these two men. When Brys had left, he swung round to Cuttle. âThere you have it, soldier. Now maybe youâll stop worshipping the Hood-damned ground I walk on.â And then he marched off. Cuttle stared after him, and then, with a faint shake of his head, followed his sergeant.









