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Malazan Book 9: Dust of Dreams Cover Art by Binding Broken
Art by Peng Lu

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It was a quirk of blind optimism that held that someone broken could, in time, heal, could reassemble all the pieces and emerge whole, perhaps even stronger for the ordeal. Certainly wiser, for what else could be the reward for suffering?
Toll the Hounds (2008) by Steven Erickson
I started reading Heretical Fishing and Dust of Dreams on the same day and I’m having so much fun with both! I think if I keep reading DoD I won’t be able to stop myself from then picking up the crippled god, I know it’s a two-part finale. I reallly missed Steven Erikson’s prose. Especially after the litrpg binge I’ve been on, it’s delicious. Every character (still alive) I adore in this series is in this book like god damn! I know people hate on dust of dreams but I think y’all are full of shit (so far) 🙂‍↕️
As the wind and sun did to the sand and stone, Raraku shaped all who had known it.
Finished Deadhouse Gates, l guess Malazan Book of the Fallen is now part of my personality

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Now I don’t know if this has already been said before because I haven’t looked that far into fandom activities (I am sorry if I am committing the sin of going up to a fandom having just finished the media being like “have we talked about this?” when everyone already has) but here is a theory behind certain aspects of Shadowthrone, Cotilion, and Tavore’s actions in the last Malazan books + a reflection on what this means in analyzing Tavore’s character.
I noticed while reading that there seems to be a discrepancy between the framing of the stakes of the last two books’ conflict and what appears to be happening; the Forkrul Assail are presenting an immediate threat to all of humanity but the characters’ justification in fighting them barely touches on this and is much more focused on saving the Crippled God and bringing him home. On top of the line where Fiddler (I believe) thinks when he realizes what Tavore is doing that it’s no wonder she wants to be unwitnessed, because if her actions were known she would be seen as a horrible villain. Which doesn’t make sense if her actions are clearly saving humanity, unless we are talking about from the POV of other races who thinks letting humanity live is evil. And then we add to this that several characters talk about the gods’ plan to defeat the Crippled God once and for all, some saying he will suffer much more pain as a result (for which purpose one would imagine they would also have to get the heart from the Forkrul Assail), Tavore talks about defying all those gods, but no gods ever show up in the final confrontation to challenge the parties – though at the end Shadowthrone and Cotilion allude to having gotten all the gods angry, those that they didn’t kill, implying that they had dealt with any gods that wanted the Crippled God for themselves off-screen.
So what I think explains this is that it was known to Tavore, Shadowthrone and Cotilion that should the gods be allowed to make their last move on the Crippled God, they would easily defeat the Forkrul Assail. The Forkrul Assail being a credible threat to the world is then entirely a creation of Shadowthrone and Cotilion for taking the other gods out of the picture, and Tavore’s role in the conspiracy is to deal with that created threat in a much more horribly risky way. And this puts into different context Tavore’s extreme secretiveness about her motives, and the way she’s described as hiding guilt like a child hiding a secret; her horrible secret is that she is not really saving the world like others think but is an accessory to the threat existing in the first place, and she is doing it for a reason that would be incomprehensible and laughed off to the average person’s (focused morally more on self and nearby community) moral sensibilities; to save a stranger from near-eternal and horrible suffering and redeem the worshippers on his home world.Â
Now this is very much stepping into the realm of conjecture and seems like a tangent, but I think that Korabas (who we do get the POV for) provides an interesting mirror to her for how she externalizes everything Tavore internalizes, and in doing so provides a hint to what Tavore’s thoughts might be. Korabas is the “wrong child”, the being of pure absence and negation that devours life in a family of life and magic. Likewise Tavore is shown in childhood to follow all the tropes of the “creepy child”; unearthly in calculated nature and maturity, playing with models of war at five years old, and ultimately the metaphorical “cuckoo child” responsible in part for the destruction of her family. And she is also metaphorically associated with otataral/negation/the void, both in her sword and being the only one in the party in book 9 to get no card in the Deck of Dragons, while her brother is “full of life”, standing as master of the whole deck.Â
Korabas wants to escape from her role of emptiness, wishing to live and be free to do something, find some purpose in her life and way to do good in the world, and ends up in an endless cycle of killing other dragons hoping that if she can just escape she can make some meaning of this suffering and make up for the bad she’s done, fill her desperate need. Tavore, likewise, I speculate is hiding a desperate philosophical agony, perhaps since childhood, that might be surprising coming from what on the surface seems like some strange robotic war child grown up; of the lack of compassion in the world, of so much suffering and agony without any meaning. Her educated background and constant study of books mean she is well-acquainted with the endless grief of history. And with this, too, comes a gaping need to make right the hurt in the world and give some sort of purpose and redemption to her existence, because she herself cannot stand this world as it is. But unlike Korabas she feels shame in this, simultaneously believing in the moral rectitude of her compassion enough to pursue her goals with an unstoppable will and being all too aware that in her stand she is gambling the world and sacrificing so many lives for a cause many would not see the way she does. Unable to unleash her need in a spasm of violence like Korabas, she keeps everything secret out of guilt and shame for it all, only letting it slip in rare moments of vulnerability how much she needs her soldiers, and let slip her bewilderment that they choose to follow her anyway. Choosing to die of her broken-heartedness about the world's suffering and senselessness alone like a dying dog, trying to pretend that that would negate the fact that she is sending so many to die with her. Because if the world can only be kept certainly safe by someone’s immeasurable torture and suffering, and compassion must be refrained from just to keep the status quo of the world alive, than what is worth saving?
Reason why I plan to read Malazan Book of the Fallen: it's 10,000+ pages long, has a lot of moving parts and interesting worldbuilding, and I hear anyone who manages to get into it becomes absolutely obsessed, making it the perfect thing to tide me over further into the Alectopause
And unlike A Song of Ice and Fire, the series was actually finished
Reason why I'm reading Red Rising: I saw this one TikTok edit about that one gold boy
"Like all men you hate to say you don't know and leave it at that. You have an answer to every question, and if you don't you make one up."
-Lostara Yil, House of Chains