who is in control?

i dont feel okay anymore

Recovery doesnt have to mean becoming neurotypical??? It means being the healthiest version of yourself that you can be. It means accepting help and not generalising the idea of therapy as bullshit. It means actually trying to better yourself regardless of whether or not you’ll be completely cured and go back to “normal”. A lot of things dont go back to normal but they can get better and you can live in this world and be okay

How To Stop Being Jealous Of People Who Get All The Opportunities That My Trauma And Mental Illness Denied Me

Quiet bpd anger be like: I’ll open your message and NOT reply I hope you see how much I hate you

i really wish i could get a refund for all the love i’ve wasted on people like! repay my emotional labour your bill is in the mail

in therapy my therapist and i were talking about my own feelings of self worth in relationships. and she asked me to say qualities about myself that someone else would be attracted to, on a romantic and platonic level. so i named some things like compassionate, empathetic, etc. and she said “you named things that you can give someone. ways you can serve, rather than ways that you are” and y'all..my mind was blown that’s gonna stick with me forever like she then proceed to tell me actual innate qualities about myself that she liked and thought anyone else would like as well and i hadn’t even considered those because like she said i was focused on things i could do outwardly to attract and maintain connections rather than who i was as a person..goddamn!!! thats tea!!!