oh my godddd this new chapter killed me ITS SO GOOD😭😭😭 i love the way butcher is training HL basically like a dog lmao, that's right walk that little freak down😭 also i LOVE how much HL hates how much he wants it, he's so fcking angry at himself i can't. also i'm sooo curious as to when exactly did he come for the first time. was it when he saw butcher loosing control and beginning to really go at it?? ....was it when butcher called him pretty? 😏 or was it only after butcher came, scratching that itch of being a good boy and doing so well?? or maybe it was right before that, and that's why he wouldn't budge when butcher tried to pull out and shot directly into his mouth OMG SO MANY POSSIBILITIES
*holds ur hand* look at my chapter title in my drafts ... its getting obscene out there ....
i love the way butcher is training HL basically like a dog lmao, that's right walk that little freak down😭
absolutely, butcher is treating him like a project now, hes like 'if i want to survive this whole thing i need to teach this cunt to LISTEN'. i hope to lean into that a bit more in the next chapter specifically
also i'm sooo curious as to when exactly did he come for the first time.
hehehe i didnt want to call attention to that moment AT ALL , like, on purpose. ITS DEALERS CHOICE u can pick whichever moment u liked the best EHEHE i didnt decide on the canon moment of HL coming bc i wanted to show how little butcher cares about him at this point in their relationship, how hes just using HL to get off, its about humiliating him etc etc . so he absolutely misses that moment, bc he didnt even think to watch out for it, he doesnt know!!! he doesnt know how truly SensitiveTM hl is, he doenst know and he doesnt care ..... for now 🥴
if this chapter was from HL's pov it would be one continous really angry monologue about how he HATESSSS butcher and HATESSS that he somehow managed to tap into how madelyn used to make him feel... but at the same time... ooo he wants to feel like that again. he used to be so happy w/ madelyn, he used to be so happy when the doctors praised him etc etc. so he caves in bc hes a stressed-out, isolated princess right now !!!! he went from a worldwide audience to having only butcher's attention. so ofc he let himself get used, he realized how much he missed being Needed, being Obedient etc... all while HATING that
that and he was constantly comparing himself to lander home in his head GHIGFH. and probably thinking he was already so much better at this than him even tho all he did was just kneel lmfaooo
ANYWAYS thank you so much for this ask im so happy ppl liked this chapter DFHGIHFG i went a bit too ham when writing it . i fear i may have put too much stuff that i enjoy in one chapter but . its my party FDHIGH
