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Cause both of them was stubborn and really couldn't fully hear themselves, it ended in screaming match more than reconcile.

In burst of emotion Rumi screamed "I'm sorry for being the worst thing that happen to you!"

There was long pause after it. Celine face get from shocked to full of grief and pain, some resignation.

Then gently, so gently, she said "Rumi, oh Rumi"

Celine came close to Rumi, slowly like to wounded deer you don't want to scare, with little teary smile and hold her face like the most precious treasure in the world.

[Oh yeah, I dont mind Miyeong raises Rumi stories too.]

Mhmm, giving birth doesnt make you a good parent. It takes a lot of trial and error, that there are points in time the birth parent will unintentionally hurt their kid.

It can be such an interesting hookline for complicated Miyeong, who isnt exactly a bad parent but not good either. Bcs at the end of the day, she's still a human who will make mistakes. Also, assuming the vitriol she and Rumi gets, that pressure is a lot. Didnt even touch whether Celine and thirdlight knows or will themselves involve in this.

Like there always was some of urban legends of how bad idols have then, but it was something they saw as unrealistic, something that was just for showing how bad old generations have (something like parents road to school)

But seeing how strict are managers about diet how Sunlight Sisters need to think more of what their label let them show and perform and not what they want to actually write? It kinda shock them, seeing how much Celine changed for them so they won't suffer like them.

And 100% Celine still has those boxes just waiting for someone to dig through and re-discover and finally produce.

When she first touched this notebooks her hands was shaking so bad. The most sacred possibly soon lost media.

huntrix (+ celine? maybe?) time travel au right after the idol awards but rumi just looks at this woman who is supposedly her mother and all she can think is "that's it?".

She ends up spending most of her time with young Celine, who is just as devoted to Miyeong as she would be in the future. Rumi doesn't get it, doesn't get what's so great about this woman. What was it about her that could make someone as amazing as Celine spend her whole life catering to a ghost. She was selfish and rude and sometimes overbearing, nothing like the picture-perfect portrait Celine painted for her.

Oof.

I think what would strike Rumi is just how *young* the three of them seem. Now, at 25, she's only a few years older, but looking at them, she feels like she's looking at kids.

Her mother is a little too naive and confident. Energetic but in a way that was exhausting.

Celine's cheeks still had a layer of baby fat and she hadn't learned how to be comfortable with her stature.

And she knows in a year or two, Miyeong will be dead and Celine will have to raise a baby alone and --

And it scared her cause she see a little herself in Celine or more Celine in her, but also Celine is so much more. Rumi didn't think she saw someone more in love with someone (Mira was close but well her and Celine are scarily similar no matter how they don't want to admit it)

And Rumi couldn't understand, someone who was glorified as well best woman to be alive was just... irresponsible barely adult, that was actually second shock. Rumi just understood how young they all were. Like all of them don't felt like adult adult well The adult always was Celine and now she looked more like kid than super composed woman she was.

Celine was branded as the visual, acted like the leader behind the scenes but was mostly the song writer.

I’m fond of the idea that the reason Huntrix has exactly zero problems with the rest of the industry is because Celine MADE it that way for them. That she lived through the entire horrible industry and wanted to make sure that Rumi (and whoever was with her) wouldn’t have the same problems.

Which means I think the Sunlight Sisters were held back a lot by the industry at the time. Celine had no interest in being front and center as the visual, but the record label made her fill that role. She was naturally a leader when it came to hunting activities but the Label thought of her as too hard headed for it. She was the most talented at writing and while a lot of her lyrics were always too much, that’s what made the Sunlight Sisters stand out so that stayed. (Even as most of Celine’s work ended up getting used by other bands)

And after Mi-yeong death and let's say disappearance of thirdlight Celine stopped performing.

She literally refused singing in public without rest of her souls. 

But emotions don't stopped and pain and grief only grew, even with little Rumi her only light in life. But she couldn't sing, couldn't dance so the only thing that was left for her was writing. 

Even with all money her idol life get her opening her own label was big thing so to secure herself she sell some of her texts everything under another name. Celine didn't want people to know that was her songs they were too personal too hurtful too raw, but it will secure Rumi's future.

And it's not pop songs anymore it's the most hurtful, heart wrenching ballads you would ever heard. 

And i try to imagine myself how after canon it came out. Cause it could go in nice way or hurt way. 

So one way is after movie Rumi (and girls) want to repair their relationship with Celine. Once she decided to make a little clean of her old boxes and Rumi wanted to see some old things her not mother have from her youth (she was deeply touched how much of her own things Celine treasured for years). There is a lot of old photo albums some cassettes they would definitely watch later. Zoey found some draft of song and, much to her surprise, she recognized that song. It was one of her favorite not something she usually listen, it helped her when her grandma died. But how? she was sure that Sunlight Sisters never even met the band that done it. Celine told them that she wrote that song not long after Mi-yeong death. And girls are like "what?" "what do you mean?" and Celine told them that she never stopped writing that a lot of her writing was actually singed by everyone but not them.

Takes out my blender and dusts it off. In an attempt to get the bell from werewolf Celine to make a new charm, the trio research ways to weaken her.

Wolfsbane is hard to get, so they opted to using silver net.

Rumi being the sneakiest readies herself to throw the net while Mira and Zoey becomes the bait.

The wolf wakes up and snarls at the so very wrong scents.

She will not let these, intruders, hurt her pack

She was about to leap towards them before she was captured in a net.

It was wrong. It hurts. Pain. Burning pain.

The trio was horrified what the silver net is doing towards Celine as she writhes in pure agony.

Her matted fur burning away and the net seems to sizzle into her skin.

Rumi immediately tries to get the net off of her.

She didn't mean to hurt her. It was said silver is meant to weaken werewolves. Not hurting them!

(It is weakening them. But not in the way the girls thought.)

Celine howls in pain and all she can think of is to protect her dead pack.

She thrashes and tries to get the burning net off of her. She snaps at these frantic foreign hands, not knowing the girls are trying to get the net off of her.

The trio hands are marred with Celine's blood.

They have to get it off her or else.

Celine starts to get weaker from the blood loss and pain.

She crawls towards the graves and the little bell, whining the whole way.

But when they finally arrived at the hanok...nobody was there. From the training grounds to even Mi-Yeong's grave. Nothing. But it's been months, if Celine was truly gone then more people would have noticed. After some investing, they found out from her secretary that Celine is currently in France. (I like the headcanon that has Celine grew up in France before joining the Sunlight sisters) Rumi goes through a myriad of emotions as she tries to call Celine again, time differences be damned! After a few minutes, someone finally picks up but it wasn't their mentor...it was someone else. An angry voice that told Rumi that Celine doesn't want to speak to her before hanging up.

And that's about all I got.

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH (the post in question)

Celine would absolutely vanish after the idol awards. after just being able to confirm Rumi and the girls are okay, alive, she respects their wishes to not contact them, and just. disappears. the confrontation with Rumi, all of this, just brought everything she had ever been running from back to the surface. (her daughter asked her to kill her. her daughter thought she could ever hurt her. she had hurt her daughter, driven her to this point, making her think Celine didn't love her when she does, she loves Rumi so much, her loving Rumi is why Rumi lived past her first day of life, but looking at Rumi and her patterns only ever reminds Celine of the worst experience of her life, her weakness and failures. even when it brought Celine her beloved daughter, she can't look at the patterns without remembering.)

she knows she messed up, she knows how much she's failed them, and they don't even know how much she's lied to them all, so she can't tell them now. she can't make herself the victim.

the best thing to do is to leave.

OOF OKAY HMM who is the person on the phone.......

most obvious option is Thirdlight. in my daydreams about this au I imagined her being dead, and generally I dislike aus where Thirdlight is still alive bc it usually is to make her the cool aunt and bash on Celine in the process. BUT I am open to it. alternatives: 1) Thirdlight and Celine having some big fight in the aftermath of Rumi's birth (and Mi-Yeong's death) and Thirdlight quitting the idol world and rarely if ever having contact with Celine in the following years but either Celine tracking her down all "I didn't know where else to go" or Thirdlight, after watching the shitshow of the idol awards on tv (and dealing with her own demons??), tracking CELINE down wanting to know what the hell happened/if Celine is okay, finding her in France... or 2) Celine and Thirdlight stayed together despite Thirdlight's reservations about raising Rumi and faking her being Mi-Yeong's kid but eventually Thirdlight backed out of the idol world, thinking Celine would be okay handling things by herself, with calls on holidays, postcards, sometimes visiting, never giving Rumi a hint about her true parentage. Thirdlight immediately calls Celine up in the aftermath of the idol awards, wanting to know what the fuck happened and being faced with Celine devastated, borderline suicidal in a way Thirdlight hasn't seen since Celine confirmed her pregnancy all those years ago.

other options??? uhhhh Celine has had family members in some fics I've seen, I remember one where she had a brother she was still close with. oof what a horrible extended family reunion. I generally believe that Celine had pretty trash parents but??? siblings aren't out of the question.

It isn’t until Rumira get into a veritable screaming match that reaches its pinnacle with,

“Having a baby ended my mother’s life, Mira! Excuse me for wanting all of us alive! To hell with a baby!”

that Zoey comes running in between them to stop anyone from saying anything else. Mira and Rumi are nearly chest to chest, breathing hard with tears of frustration pricking at their eyes when Zoey inserts herself and forces them both back a few steps.

There was many land mines in that conversation and playing Switzerland hadn’t saved Zoey from the explosion anyway so she says, “We either talk about this in therapy or we don’t talk about it at all,” staring Rumira down in equal measure until they relent.

With a huff, Rumi and Mira turn in opposite directions to leave but Zoey’s not done.

“Stop.” They freeze. “Apologize. Both of you.” They glance at one another and promptly look away.

“You two let the argument get out of hand enough that I HAD to step in as mediator so no one is going anywhere until I see some hugs, a kiss, AND some apologies.”

Given how fraught the situation was, Zoey let them get away with derivatives of “I love you, I’m sorry”s but usually she’d have them say what they were sorry for and how they were gonna change in the future.

And while she did promise to let them leave after the apologies, she changed her mind at the last second. She drags them to their shared room (formerly Rumi’s room) and gestures to the bed, “Actually, it’s mandatory cuddle time. Rumi will hold Mira for thirty minutes and then you’ll swap,”

Rumira both begin to protest but Zoey’s answering glare is enough for them to change into something more comfortable and start their cuddle sentence.

It takes all of five minutes for Mira to lose the tension that had been bunching up her shoulders while snuggled into Rumi’s collarbone. Rumi playing with the hairs at the base of Mira’s neck didn’t hurt either.

When they swapped, Mira just shimmied further up and rolled over, pulling Rumi on top of her. Rumi was fond of curling up when upset so she ended up with her knees parallel to Mira’s torso and her head tucked snugly under her chin resting squarely on her chest. Mira’s hands snaked under Rumi’s shirt and trailed lazily up and down her spine until she was suitably boneless, fighting off sleep and failing.

When Rumi’s soft snores clued Mira in to her unconscious state, she spoke to Zoey though she couldn’t see her while flat on her back.

“You were right… we needed this.”

Zoey appeared to the left of her, Chesire like, “You don’t say?”

Mira would’ve rolled her eyes but she couldn’t trivialize what Zoey had done or how much Zoey hated having to do it in the first place.

“I’m sorry, jagiya.”

“I know sweetie,” Zoey brushes a hair out of Mira face before dropping her phone on the side table and snuggling up to Mira’s side.

“I just-” but Zoey’s hand covers the entirety of her mouth.

“Therapy or not at all. And definitely not while Rumi is asleep.”

Mira kisses the hand covering her mouth in acquiesce and Zoey lets her go.

Turdle Zoey want her hug from her long dog girlfriend.