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I need to know how to make friends like I don't think there's anything that puts people off of me besides my introversion. the people I forced myself to be extroverted around seemed to like me, but unfortunately I don't enjoy spending time with other people because I am always watching myself.
there are a few people who fw me. one of them still likes me because I'm loud around her, but ultimately left because our group was too dull. we still talk sometimes, but there's no hope for me in joining her new group. one of them does not seem to take the hint or understand that I do not like to be around her because she is annoying. the other two are good people but I have nothing in common with them - one is stuck in 2018 with fidget spinners and tracksuits, they're both extremely sheltered.
if there were people I was comfortable around, I'd be hanging out all the time. I'd like to go to the woods and the mall and do actual fun things.
do I need to stop pitying myself and force myself into socialising with new people? or do I need to suck it up and remember that these people I'm with now are the only ones who will ever give me a chance? keep in mind I rarely talk to other people - when I do, I'm nice, but ultimately I've solidified my status as the quiet girl.
