Hey, I'm Felix. I'm in my 20s, I use they/them pronouns, and I've been on Tumblr since 2013 babey. This blog is for whatever the fuck I want it to be for, mostly hyperfixations since I'm AuDHD as hell
I'm also physically disabled and experience chronic pain. I will whine about this from time to time because it sucks to be in constant agonizing pain, believe it or not
Sometimes I write stuff. Here's my Ao3. Sometimes I draw stuff, I tag it #my art I also have some OCs I talk about. More on them in a moment. Anything I say (outside of tags) is under #felix speaks
On Bluesky now
Also on Art Fight
I have like a million WIPs going on at any given minute, so I'm not going to bother you with knowledge of ALL my OCs. There will be info on the main ones under the cut. Before the cut, though, I have a pair of OCs that are a biiiiiiiit Folgers Home For The Holidays 2009. Block the tag #space pirates to avoid seeing anything related to them
Apocalyptica
A book I've been working on here and there for many moons now. Main character is Lucian (they/them), they're the antichrist and an anxious mess with OCD. Their wife is Harvey (she/her) who is a Fallen Angel and basically if sunshine was a person.
Other characters include Edric (he/him), Laelia (she/her) and Thalassa (she/her)
I don't really talk about these specific OCs a lot on here so they don't have their own tag. I love them though
Strange Violence
Tag: #space pirates
A long ass project I've been working on since 2022-ish and I've somehow written over 200k words related to it. Planning to publish this chapter by chapter for free on the internet once I'm done with it. I am obsessed with this world and these characters, I talk about them in tags sometimes and have posted some art for them
Main characters are Sirena (she/her) and Tobias (he/him). If you want to have a long breakdown of the plot, ask and I will HAPPILY tell you, but the short version is that they're a pair of siblings who got kidnapped by pirates and then became pirates. In space. Also, magic is involved. As is incest. Idk, man. The angst of it all appealed to me.
The other main character are Felicity (she/her) and Rosalia (she/he/they). I almost never talk about these two because I have not worked on their half of the story at all. They are the younger siblings of Sirena and Tobias and they encounter the pair 10 years after Sirena and Tobias are initially kidnapped and declared dead.
Other characters include Holly (best friend of S + T) (she/her), Zephyr (main villain) (he/him), and more!
Please, god, message me to ask about my OCs I will love you forever.
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Y’know how some schools do a teachers vs students kickball game during the last week of class before finals? Yeah i think Ryland Grace goes fucking crazy during that. The UNESCO rumors get overshadowed by the time weather moved their game into the gymnasium, where Mr Grace punted the ball with so much fucking force that it took out one of the ceiling lights
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[ID: a digital drawing of Rumi, Derpy and Sussy from KPop Demon Hunters resembling the famous still from My Neighbor Totoro in which Satsuki and Totoro wait in the rain. Rumi holds a yellow umbrella and looks sideways at Derpy who looks happy. Sussy sits on Derpy's head and has its own, tiny, pink umbrella. They're standing in front of a pink-lit store door, otherwise it's dark. End ID]
rocky getting into pseudoscience for shits and giggles would be SO FUCKING FUNNY. imagine: he might take it seriously for five minutes. the whole point of it is that its vague and convoluted enough to hook people who have some blind spots as to how the world works. lots of earth culture sounds made up! its all very confusing!
and then grace very gently corrects him but also crucially makes fun of him the entire time.
rocky: (peeved) how would rocky know this crazy science wrong and dumb? relativity also crazy science but is real!
grace: haha... but seriously though. its not remotely the same. (twenty minute rant about how people conflating the two is actually a VERY serious issue back on earth)
rocky, being inquisitive, keeps researching and soon finds out that bringing up his new pseudoscientific discoveries & pretending to be fully earnest about it all is probably one of THE easiest ways to drive grace up the wall. needless to say he exploits this tactic to no end.
rocky: i do research. grace is jerk all make sense now. astrology birth chart say taurus with ascendant leo very ambitious. strong opinion, independent thinker. also big ego. easily bruised if criticized.
grace: ... i know youre trolling and this is all bullshit and yet somehow it affects me.
rocky: moon in gemini also very insightful!
grace: dude im begging you to stop. what do i have to do to get you to stop.
rocky: math is sound... stars and planets no lie. opposition between moon and saturn responsible for grace emotional constipation! ohh, grace also have difficult relationship with guardian in early life, expect neglect and rejection from others, is all coming together now...
grace: okay thats it im walking out of the airlock
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Okay. Toby Fox. I know you follow this blog on an alt so listen to me. You need to approach Fangamer. You need to tell them "We are going to make another outfit for the Ralsei plush, and it's going to be the dress from Chapter 5." Are you listening to me Toby? Yes I know it shows up for one brief scene for an optional minigame that most players aren't going to see. It doesn't matter. It's in the game now. You and Fangamer are going to make a deltrillion dollars if you do this, Toby.
“i have to listen to my body’s needs” secret boss fight written by person who has chronic and disabling wrist pain which has fundamentally changed his relationship to his hobbies and his job <- i care it as someone who has also had chronic pain in my wrist/hand for 5 years
another thing i tend to think about with this. i also just think in chapter 5 there's a theme of care and dependency. the flowers have extreme guilt over being taken care of by asgore. flowery conceptualizes himself as weak and useless. in the dark world, his fantasy, he tries to return the care given to him to asgore to "make up for" asgore taking care of him when he should've died decades ago. it's an extreme example, but i also resonate with his feeling.
when your body or mind puts you in a situation where your reliance on other people becomes really explicit, you're trained by the world to see that as shameful or to see yourself as deficient. your efforts to ignore your needs just to avoid "being a burden," will leave you worse off. you punish yourself because of deeply internalized ableism.
regardless, even by virtue of being a living thing on this planet, you are already designed to need others. you have to listen to your body's needs even against a society that teaches you you shouldn't. you have to be okay with the fact that you have needs. sometimes your needs are different or are greater than the person next to you, and all you can do is listen to your body and turn to others when you need them. you're still a person when you need people.
when toby says this:
it's interesting to me how much he uses the language of deltarune to express this feeling. your hopes and dreams slipping away, and bitterness growing is literally the explanation we get for shadow crystals (and so wept the fallen star, making rivers with its tears. then, slowly, from the bitter water, something grew. it looked like glass). this is also the crushing feeling when you lose a sense of control when you're in pain, when you can't do things the way you want, the way you used to. but when you find yourself still able to fly, you do so because you've adapted. you've listened to your body. you've learned that listening to your body means changing the pace, letting yourself be cared for, letting yourself be helped.
as far as toby's said it, having to expand his team has made deltarune a better game. chapter 5 is so expansive because so many people helped to make it. Pink's fight has sprite work from guest artists, music with Camellia, bullets programmed by Toby's team. She is, to me, a love letter to Deltarune's development process as a whole and how it has shaped Toby, and a reflection of the kinds of thoughts Toby has shared with us about developing Deltarune alongside pain. I also think it's a beautiful follow-up to Gerson's themes of storytelling and authorship (letting go of "perfection" + accepting the contributions of others = both about rescinding control and embracing perseverance). Pink is also so much more than this, but I've been thinking about this a lot.
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it really pisses me off when adults sit there and drill it into kids’ heads that their youth is fleeting and tell them things like “enjoy your childhood while it lasts because this is the best it’s gonna get”. why are you telling children that adulthood is the worst thing they can experience? seriously what the fuck is wrong with you, why are you trying to make them feel like growing up is a fate worse than death? trying to convince them their life is over before it even begins? i’m tired of that shit. because tell my why my 12 year old cousin told me when she turns 30 she’ll be so depressed she’s just gonna cry all the time. what the fuck. kids don’t need to hear that their already stressful and overwhelming lives are never going to get better, that the abuse and lack of autonomy they face is apparently the highlight of their lives. they need to hear about adults who are happy to be alive and happy to have made it to their age. they need to know that growing up rules, it’s a gift and life does not have to suck for them, that they have a future that’s worth sticking around for. this rhetoric is so damaging mentally and i’m about to start hitting the adults who parrot it. i’m sorry you hate your life but you don’t get to dump your issues on these kids. don’t piss me off and leave these babies alone!
sorry to everyone out there who thinks they have the funniest tshirt but i think i can confidently say i just saw the actual funniest tshirt just now. i passed by a beautiful black woman with long multicolor braids blowing majestically in the beach breeze & she was wearing an oversized tshirt that said in gigantic letters "WHITE BOY OF THE YEAR"
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