i hate my boyfriend i waant out of the relationship and i just cant bring myself to leave. i know im gonna miss him so much and the apt will feel so empty. i just want someoneto love me right and is halfway level headed. its just walking on eggshells and im miserable in my own place

I have to wonder what my neighbors think of me. the first yearish of my lease i was fucked up on xanax and going insane and in and out of rehab then i moved into sober living for 9 months and my bf moved in by himself while i was still in sober living and i would stop by everyday like a dog sitter then i moved back in and we started doing dope and then he got incarcerated and now its just me and now were moving out. a wild rotation. hes still gone and im going insane aggin!!!!