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John drunk and in his grief trying to suffocate baby Sam with a pillow

sam winchester dislocated jaw

Some fake things that aren't real are low key really importsnt

i think sam drinking demon blood was kinda like how some victims of csa/sa may have a "promiscuous" lifestyle to sorta "rewrite" their trauma in a way they can cope with. sam was seeking a resolution to azazel's violation by reliving the initial trauma in a way that made him feel powerful or as if he were exerting agency. this, to me, makes ruby that much more insidious a villain

thinking about john and dean sexualizing sam behind his back. sam bends over a certain way and you can see a strip of his dimpled lower back. john subtly jerks his chin to point it out to dean

they saying azazel touched sam that's why he quiet

open tumblr, see something that pisses me off, write a snarky post, delete it, write a slightly more earnest post, edit it for 5 minutes, delete it, close tumblr

i miss john winchester so much, imagine him calling sam sweetheart while fucking him right beside dean who's still completely asleep mmmmfghgh. . .

do you guys ever think about supernatural