𝖋𝖆𝖙𝖚𝖒𝖈𝖊𝖗𝖙𝖆

  there it is, the biting sarcasm of a teenager in pain. tabitha recognizes it well; she's seen plenty of it over the last couple of years, though it seems to have gotten a little worse recently. and she understands, truly she does. they're all in this terrible place, have witnessed things that no human should ever have to endure, and worst of all, she'd just lost her father. julie has every reason to be angry and difficult, but sometimes, tabitha struggles to find the patience to deal with it rationally.

@fatumcerta sent : i was looking for some, well ... books.

Still,  he  glanced  down  at  the  finger  jabbing  into  his  chest,  then  back  at  her  with  a  raised  brow.  ❝ You  barged  in  here,  started  yelling  at  me, and  now  you’re  offended  because  I’m  not responding  with  a  group  hug  and  a  heartfelt  speech ?  ❞  What  did  she  want  him  to  do ?  Cry  with  them ?  Glue  that  thing  back  together ?  He  hadn’t  even  forced  the  conversation  to  begin  with .  Didn’t  she  have  anyone  else  to  become  all  social  with ?  Or had  the  brief  flash  of  disappointment  on  his  face  when  he  saw  them  entering  the  house  wounded  her  that  deeply ? 

❝ So,  unless  this  town’s  buried  treasure  was  hidden  under  your  house, I  doubt  any  of  this  is  going  somewhere  useful. ❞  He  had  already  his  own  problems  to  deal  with ;  an  antenna  that’d  led  nowhere  but  to  further  disappointment,  and  a  town  that  made  no  damn sense.  So,  if Tabitha  was  so  convinced  that  he  was  not  worth  talking  to, and  that  every  breath  spent  on  him  was  wasted, then  why  was  she  still  standing  there?

it   wasn't   the   first   time   tabitha   had   told   him   off.   still,   if   there   was   one   thing   she   regretted,   it   was   brushing   off   jim's   frustration   while   they'd   been   building   the   radio   tower.   it   was,   ideed,   a   whole   other   thing   to   deal   with   it   outside   his   sudden   bursts   into   their   (former)   home.   ❝   i'm   not   about   to   argue   over   who's   throwing   the   fucking   pity   party   here.   ❞   true,   it   felt   like   they'd   lost   the   last   pieces   connecting   them   to   their   old   lives.   but   sometimes   it   seemed   like   jade   couldn't   appreciate   what   little   they   still   had,   too   busy   getting   pissed   off   over   something   as   small   as   another   person   breathing   in   his   presence.   still,   that   was   not   what   this   conversation   was   about.

Blood. 

❝   not   the   whispers   of   madness — that   is   not   what   i   meant...   i   meant   the   pattern's   pull.   the   quiet   insistence   to   do   what   is   right,   even   when   it   asks   what   we   would   rather   not   give.   even   when   we   dislike   what   it   demands   of   us.   some   things   simply   must   be   done.   ❞   yet   another   question   had   continued   to   trouble   her   as   well   ;   what   if   the   voices   within   his   mind   were   not   madness   at   all?   what   if   there   was   far   more   to   it   than   anyone   yet   understood?   yet   his   words   prompted   her   to   search   his   expression,   her   eyes   searching   for   further   thoughts   rummaging   his   mind.

hi,   jen.   i   truly   appreciate   your   kindness.   &   as   much   as   i'd   like   to   take   a   break,   i'm   not   sure   i   can   afford   to   leave   london   right   now..

i don’t think i could ever get over you.

standing in front of you right now, it’s torture, not being able to kiss you. 

i love you. even though that freaks the fuck out of me to say it.

life keeps going. you can’t just give up.

i don’t want you to need me. i want you to want me.

we’re too similar. we would drive each other crazy.

i appreciate that secrecy is your love language.

i thought we could be friends. i want to be friends. 

you’d do anything for everyone to like you.

you always have been a shitty liar.

maybe no contact is the only way this works.

giving you shit is just like an old reflex. 

i wanna prove to everyone that i’m not a fuck up.

i’m doing this with or without you. with you would be easier.

you’re the one in my fucking head.

you will never be alone again.

i know you fought for every fucking thing you ever got in your life.

sooner or later, you’re gonna have to face up to what you’ve done.

you don’t know? you could fill a book with the shit you don’t know.

anything and everything you do is okay.

i know that you’re lonely.

i love you, and i don’t wanna love you, because i’ll never fucking trust you again.

i’m the last person who thinks they’re a hero. i fucking hate myself half the time.

if i wasn’t so tired, i’d say something sexual. shows how tired i am.

i feel like i’m standing on the edge of a cliff.

we keep fighting till we don’t have to anymore.

i have stood by you at every single turn.

does it help somehow to bitch about it?

let’s not pretend i’m the one who ended things.

i made my choices. so did you.

we stuck together because we had to.

that’s a long ass time to be with somebody and then walk away.

i thought someone was coming to murder me. this is worse.

i’m doing a fucking thing here.

just revising my suspect list. 

you shouldn’t be afraid of the bad parts of you.

i’m pretty sure no one gives a shit about your needs right now.

we’re high functioning compared to them. at least we’re communicating.

when you changed your mind about us, that broke me. 

you’re gonna make mistakes sometimes. it’s just part of being alive.

do you think i’m a bad mom?

murder makes you extra sweaty.

you weren’t the only smart one. you just like to think you were.

i know you guys are… whatevering.

you know i don’t deserve your friendship, right? i just hurt people. 

it has to mean something, right? that we keep coming back to each other, that it’s never really over?

time’s a motherfucker.

so, why do you suddenly want me?

when i look at you, i don’t see your mistakes.

you think they care about you? you don’t matter. to anyone.

i don’t want to be a joke anymore.

i never not wanted you.

i guess cleaning up our mess makes for good foreplay.

you never move on from something like this. it just changes you. then you adapt.

i did not start out a bad person.

just ‘cause i’m scared doesn’t mean it’s going away. gotta accept it.

when i think about the specifics too much, i just get sad. time doesn’t wait. 

what’s the one thing you want out of your life?

we always come back around, you and me.

do you forgive me? for being so stubborn? 

i spent so much time trying not to be who i was, i don’t even know who i am.

i like how i feel when i’m with you. 

i’m done talking for tonight.

all i ever wanted from you was a fucking hug.

you’re not okay. you’re stubborn.

just because you say something to a person doesn’t mean you necessarily mean it.

i didn’t learn my lesson. we were good. you just don’t want good.

did you really not see that coming? because i sure did.

i missed you. i’ve missed you for months.

come on. bickering is what we do. it’s fun.

you’re something else. when you believe in something, nothing’s gonna change your mind.

i know what you’re doing. you’re acting like a dick so no one can see how badly you’re hurting.

i don’t think you’re crazy. you’ve been through a lot. that’s okay with me.

there’s been enough death. i’m fucking sick of it. aren’t you?

i forgot about you, and i hate myself for that.

i needed you, and you just weren’t there. you left me.

you always could read my mind.

it’s gonna eat you up to keep this all inside.

there’s only you. there’s only ever been you.

my chest physically hurts to not be able to tell her i’m in love with her.

you never let anyone see you hurting.

sometimes i think you’re a little too good at being fine.

you win. this. whatever we’re doing.

now you’re someone i miss when you’re not around.

i thought that we loved each other. 

you have to say what you want. it’s your move.

you’re pretty hard to resist.

you make people feel okay just by showing up.

don’t let the fact that you’re a terrible person keep you up tonight.

all that is happening is that you are not in control, and you’re not used to it.

i’m intimidated as fuck by you.

obviously context can be determined by you and your writing partners but wanted to provide a less inherently shippy list!

❝ i've missed hanging out with you. ❞

❝ you needed help so here i am. let me help. ❞

❝ i really value your friendship, you've always been here for me when no one else was. ❞

❝ every time you show up i know i'm about to get a headache. ❞

❝ i'm not sad i'm...i'm smad! ❞

❝ i'd wish you'd call me sometimes when you're not in a relationship crisis. ❞

❝ you're important to me—so if it matters to you it matters to me. ❞

❝ i actually have no idea what you just said but sure. ❞

❝ if you don't eat the last muffin i will. ❞

❝ i'm not really sure what to say to that. ❞

❝ if you really wanted to cheer me up you could buy me a drink. ❞

❝ look you've been running around here with a chip on your shoulder and i've put up with it for long enough without asking questions. ❞

❝ either tell me whats wrong or stop cutting into everyone. ❞

❝ i don't really wanna be around most people but it's okay when its you. ❞

❝ no one else really understands. but i knew you would. ❞

❝ i really hope you stay in my life. makes shit easier having someone like you by my side. ❞

❝ i just really need my friend right now. ❞

❝ come on, it's boring if i go by myself. ❞

❝ stop pouting, i brought something that'll cheer you up. ❞

❝ stay over with me tonight. we can rent a movie, eat shitty food and drink cheap wine. just like we used to. ❞

❝ you don't always have to look out for me. sometimes it's my turn to take care of you. ❞

❝ i know you're going through a lot right now, but those emotions mean you're alive and they are beautiful, even if it hurts. ❞

❝ lets go get something to eat and then we can talk about it. ❞

❝ i needed you! i needed my friend and you weren't there. ❞

❝ you've been a shit friend lately. you really hurt me. ❞

❝ why can't you ever just say you're sorry? ❞

❝ you know how sometimes it's about your thing and sometimes it's about my thing? this is a 'it's about me' moment. ❞

❝ i know you didn't call me at three am to talk about the moon. what happened? ❞

❝ i'll always forgive you. we've known each other for too long for anything else. ❞

❝ cheer up. it only gets worse from here. ❞

❝ i'm sorry i wasn't there when i should have been. ❞

❝ i didn't realize how bad it'd gotten. ❞

❝ i can't help you unless you tell me you need help. ❞

❝ i guess you've already seen me at my worst, huh? ❞

❝ you're an asshole but you're my asshole so. ❞

❝ don't be such a dick and come help me out, will you? ❞

❝ you're kind of bitch. it's why we get along so well. ❞

❝ ha. i knew there was a reason i kept you around. ❞

❝ you are so not driving. ❞

❝ okay lets beat the dead horse into a pulp, what happened? ❞

❝ i have thee juciest gossip. ❞

❝ you said you had something i'd wanna hear? ❞

[ 1 ] for our muses to cook dinner together.

[ 2 ] for one muse to rescue the other from a bad date.

[ 3 ] for our muses to go on a roadtrip together that goes wrong.

[ 4 ] for one muse to take care of the other who is sick or injured.

[ 5 ] for one muse to call the other in a time of need.

[ 6 ] for one muse to show up at the other's house with ice cream after a bad day.

[ 7 ] for one muse to give the other a gift.

[ 8 ] for one muse to help the other get ready for a night out.

[ 9 ] for our muses to go shopping together.

[ 10 ] for our muses to give each other tarot/rune readings.

[ 11 ] one muse accompanies the other to visit the graveside of a loved one.

[ 12 ] one muse is upset and will only let the other near them.

[ 13 ] for our muses to make a blood oath.

[ 14 ] receiver reveals a secret to sender.

𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐥𝐭 -

01. avoids eye contact or looking at the floor. 02. wringing hands together in silence. 03. fidgeting with the hem of their shirt, unable to stay still. 04. looking at receiver in long silence before looking away. 05. silently leaves a folded note on the table in front of the other. 06. touches the others arm but pulls back out of guilt.

𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 -

01. slams fist onto a table without saying a word. 02. exhaling sharply through their nose and clenching their jaw. 03. throws an object across the room. 04. crossing their arms tightly, digging fingers into their own skin. 05. pacing the room with heavy steps. 06. glares at the other with a clenched fist.

𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 -

01. gently pushing stray hair behind the others ear. 02. resting their forehead against the others. 03. cups the others face with both hands. 04. pressing a kiss to the others forehead in silence. 05. lingering touches against the others face. 06. wraps their arms around the other from behind and rests their head on the others shoulder.

𝐬𝐚𝐝𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 -

01. wiping their eyes before someone can notice. 02. pressing their face into a pillow to muffle sobs. 03. pulls the other into a desperate hug and wont let go. 04. silently reaching for the others hand, needing comfort. 05. walks into the room with red-rimmed eyes and no words.

𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 -

01. spins the other around without warning in a hug. 02. links arms with the other and tugs them along happily. 03. provides the other with a handmade gift. 04. tackles the other in a sudden and joyful hug. 05. kisses the others cheek unexpectedly and grins.

𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐫 -

01. backing away slowly and looking for exits. 02. hiding behind the other and peeking around. 03. flinches at sudden movement from the other. 04. presses their back against the wall with eyes darting around the room. 05. jumps at a noise and instinctively grabs the others hand.

𝐜𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠

01. tucks a blanket gently around the other person's shoulders. 02. applies a bandage with slow and deliberate care. 03. brings them food and water and watches to ensure they eat. 04. runs fingers through their hair in efforts to soothe. 05. rubs soothing circles on the others back while they cry. 06. stays silently by the others side in support without saying a word.

𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠

❛  i can carry that for you.  ❜ ❛  i can come over, if you don't want to be alone.  ❜ ❛  i can go with you, so you don't have to do this by yourself.  ❜ ❛  i can keep you warm.  ❜ ❛  i can listen for as long as you need me to.  ❜ ❛  i can make breakfast while you stay in bed.  ❜ ❛  i can make you laugh. just give me a minute.  ❜ ❛  i can remember enough for both of us.  ❜ ❛  i can share mine with you.  ❜ ❛  i can stay with you a little longer.  ❜ ❛  i can take care of you for once.  ❜ ❛  i can wait for you here.  ❜ ❛  can i keep this? it reminds me of you.  ❜ ❛  can i keep you company?  ❜ ❛  can i kiss you?  ❜ ❛  can i lay my head in your lap?  ❜ ❛  can i see you smile again?  ❜ ❛  can i take care of you tonight?  ❜ ❛  can i tell you how pretty you look?  ❜ ❛  can i tell you something silly?  ❜ ❛  can we just do nothing today?  ❜ ❛  can we stay like this a little longer?  ❜ ❛  can you come a little closer?  ❜ ❛  can you hold me for just a second?  ❜ ❛  can you promise you'll text when you get home?  ❜ ❛  you can always come home to me.  ❜ ❛  you can be as clingy as you want. i don't mind.  ❜ ❛  you can be soft here.  ❜ ❛  you can come over whenever you miss me.  ❜ ❛  you can have the last bite.  ❜ ❛  you can have this; it was supposed to be yours anyway.  ❜ ❛  you can hide here for a while.  ❜ ❛  you can keep looking at me like that.  ❜ ❛  you can keep my heart. i wasn't using it anyway.  ❜ ❛  you can kiss me again, if you want.  ❜ ❛  you can lean on me.  ❜ ❛  you can pick the music.  ❜ ❛  you can stay as long as you want.  ❜ ❛  you can stay close to me, i like that.  ❜ ❛  you can take my hand.  ❜