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I’m Back

So..I have been TMI lately. Why? I have not been satisfied with how things have been going.    I have been very depressed and low lately. Why? Well, overthinking.  I am 28 years old and I still live at home. I don’t have a place of my own. I can’t move out because I am broke. I am in student debt and my salary was not going well. Now, I am changing my career and it is not what I thought I would…

I am going to love myself. I am going to go on the interview. I am going to get the job. I am going to fall in love. I am going to show love towards my family. I am going to hang out with my friends. I am going to save my money. I am going to laugh until I can’t breath. I am going to be healthy. I am going to walk for miles. I am going to read that book. I am going to be polite. I am going to see…

Don’t Live in the Past

 Life has been rather difficult for me the last year. Many may not understand but I basically had a crisis. I can’t call it a midlife crisis but it was very similar. Working many part time jobs, gaining weight, drinking a lot, and thinking people who were apart of your life really where not the best for you or ran away when times got rough.  Life is a challenge and it is not supposed to be easy.…

So, this is the last full week of me being twenty-seven years old. Twenty-seven had many ups and downs. I have to say 2016/being twenty-seven was one of the hardest parts of my life. I had a lot of changes and self exploring/crisis happening. I had to explore what I truly want to be happy and I am still learning.  First, twenty-seven was full of the most tears in my life. I am learning that I am…

Lately, I have been holding onto the past too much. I would wish and over think that things would change. They did not. Time to fully move on. I started to but in the back of my mind, I really wished to stay in a hopeful mood. I felt weak and this situation made me feel self doubt and a lack of confidence. Now, I realize I am more than the situation. I decided to make some deletions of social…

Self Love on Valentine’s Day

  Valentine’s Day is almost upon us or some celebrate this weekend due to expenses on the actual day. I was going to be bitter this year but being bitter doesn’t get us anywhere. This is the first Valentine’s Day in seven years where I do not have a Valentine that is not related to me. 2016 was a rough year in my love life and with rough patches in relationships; confidence, motivation and self…

I am feeling very crafty lately.   Today, I made an inspirational board. Since I was in a funk lately, I did research and found this project to boost confidence and motivation. I found wonderful quotes and words that I felt described me. Also, I am hold a sloth and that was the happiest I ever was.  -Jackie 

Today is a big day for me. It is one month since I had alcohol. Now, I was not an alcoholic but I was finding myself drinking more than usual. I was getting into craft beer and making it a hobby. There were other things too with this subject.  Alcohol has caused me to gain weight. I worked so hard with my weight loss a couple years ago. Once I started to go to craft beer or liquor, I was starting…

This week has been great. Monday was a great start with my Weight Watchers meeting. Going to the meetings are really helping me and giving me something to look forward to. Also, it is keeping me in check to count my points and care what I put into my body.  I am enjoying counting points again. Also, I like scanning things to see what is a better choice or not. Here is an example of a healthy five…

  I am a loser this week! I am so proud of myself. I lost 5.4 lbs on my first week doing Weight Watchers again. I followed the program exactly, drank more than 80 ozs of water and I made better choices. I am so proud of myself.   This really will be my year. -Jackie

My  I worked really hard last semester and saved up a lot of money. I am not bragging, I am sharing how I decided to purchase something for myself.   I am not huge on jewelry. The only jewelry I wear is what someone may give me. I believe jewelry is sentimental. I don’t know why. I always felt this way. Most of my jewelry..I can not wear. I mentally can not stand it..due to sentimental value.…

 I have always been apart of Weight Watchers in a way. I used to borrow my Mom’s books and tools. In the old days before smart phones; I would actually write things done. Now with the app, things are easier. However, the app wasn’t good enough anymore. I was tired of doing this alone.  My Mom always helped me. However, I feel she is in a different position in her weight loss journey. Also, she…

First, thank you everyone for the support the last few days. You’re all truly amazing! My blog blew up and I got the most views EVER. I am blessed to have many supporters.  I didn’t sleep well last night but I am moving on. I have cried too much the last three days. Screw this behavior. I have plans for 2017. I have plans for my future. Things don’t always go the way as planned. That does not…