Perspicacity

i feel like im a weird age where i got just a blurry glimpse at the world Before. it used to be cold in the mornings and websites had fun games and the search results showed you what you searched for. covid wasn't a thing. can anybody fucking hear me. did i dream it all????

People were so messy in the past. I’ve been studying Alaskan newspaper archives and I just stumbled across the record of a man who abandoned his family in Washington around 1905 and lived another 30 years in a cabin along the Yukon River in Alaska with them assuming he had died around the time he left for Alaska. Dude was just sitting in a cabin in the middle of nowhere for 30 years avoiding his wife and 4 kids. No divorce, no gold panning money mailed home. And his wife didn’t even divorce him for abandonment or have him declared dead for insurance purposes. So curious if he was like “This isn’t working out, I’m going somewhere far away.” and she was like “Alright, understood.” or if he left and she couldn’t be arsed to deal with the paperwork.

My dad used to say that the only men who are adamant about their female sexual partners being virgins before them and obsessed with women having low body counts are men who are extremely bad in bed and are afraid of their female sexual partners having anything to compare it to and the ability to recognize that sex is supposed to be good and that particular guy is not good. Which I believe to be true but it was a bizarre yet insightful bit of sex ed to get as a teenager.

i get so gay off that whatever you got

I asked my much cooler younger brother (bassist, surfer, vintage console repairman) what his fursona would be. He gave a stock response. He isnt a furry but has several furry friends, he respects them from a distance, yaddah yaddah. I pressed him. Okay but if you had to pick. He paused as if struck with revelation and said: "What if I was a manta ray? Like Big Man from splatoon?" And frankly I think his fursona is already cooler than mine. It's an enlightened choice.

btw you will miss this in 5 or 10 years. memory will smooth these circumstances down like a river stone, and you will find yourself longing for a shade of light or a moment of this particular innocence. you don't know about what happens next, and one day that will be the most alluring thing of all. don't leave it all for nostalgia. have a nice night now, whatever night it happens to be.

i need crossword puzzles to stop giving me sports clues. dont ask me about football stars and nba championships and baseball team names. im the kind of nerd who chooses to do crossword puzzles why would you expect this of me. cruel and unusual.