i am stardust gathered fleetingly into form

first off i am IN LOVE with this book. like, this book was all i could've ever wanted.

like not even two chapters in and someone's a giant worm! LIGHTWORM!!!!!!!

god, i thought i was in control of my emotions but apparently not, because i can't think of what i wanted to say!

oh. ithuriel being trapped in tessa's necklace was not something i saw coming (also, man ithuriel's luck sucks because he goes from being trapped in a necklace, to being trapped by valentine)

tessa changing into ithuriel was INCREDIBLE

charlotte and henry! cecily and gabriel! SOPHIE AND GIDEON!!!!!

SOPHIE ASCENDING OH MY GOD SO PERFECT

jessamine's death and her asking will to take care of the baby jessie doll was heartbreaking, and then she comes back as the ghost at the end, and wow, my heart broke again.

also, i was totally thinking brother zacharias would be will when i was reading city of heavenly fire, but it was JEM AND I WAS CRYING THIS BOOK IS SO PERFECT YOU GUYS.

but just more importantly than everything ever, the resolution of the "love triangle" was the greatest ever. the fact that all three accepted that tessa loved will and she also loved jem, and always would, and that loving one didn't diminish her love for the other in any way oh my god, cassandra clare is killing me softly.

but nothing gets me more than the epilogue where tessa and jem meet on the bridge and i thought i had got the tears under control, but no i'm crying again just thinking about it. but that was everything i wanted and i'm so, so, SO FREAKING OVERJOYED by the way this series ended.

also, i think this might be my favorite romance of all time. because tessa lived a long, happy life with will and their children and grandchildren, and then all those years later she got to be reunited with jem, and now she gets to spend a lifetime with him, and it's just so perfect because being happy with jem doesn't in any way mean she loved/loves will any less and i am so so happy you guys.

basically just wow wow WOW this book is flawless.