his dumb kitten :))

I hope you like watching from afar… he doesn’t like to share too much :)

NSFW // I normally wouldn’t go by anything online like this, but i know i’m his kitten so i gotta get myself used to it :))

so essentially this blog will be used as my diary of sorts, just logging my thoughts and feelings and maybe some fantasies… my owner has complete access to the account so its mainly to share with him :)) but sharing and people seeing my embarrassing shit is always a bonus..

- dms are closed, so no real need to refer to me anyways… and if anyone enjoys this, its just a bonus…

- asks are open, and i must reply to every ask. same thing with comments, i must reply to every comment :))

- pictures at his disposal, will all be censored/covered

- maybe i can take chances with some drawings… but that has got me termed in the past so maybe not… who knows :)

- will not be reblogging anything unless i comment something with substance… he only really wants to see my posts :P

- kinks focused on: sub/dom, bdsm, humiliation, exposure, cock worship, surveillance/control, hypnosis/mind control (mostly in reference to), voice/language play, and maybe more…

also if i use german at all on this blog just know. im still learning and am noT fluent

i woke up a bit early today.. i got my duolingo done and i watched some videos until master woke up !! he was really tired so we didnt do much in the morning along with,, me getting my period, im just kinda in pain and cant do some of the things we do as easily, like wearing my lovense at work every shift or playing a lot on general… but i am still horny for sure :)) i want his dick so bad mo matter how bloody itd get

i drove to work with my tits out for him becaus ei kinda forgot he told me i would drive to work naked and get dressed somwhere other than work… but its also really scary for me even if itd be fun and id like tooo…. im just anxious crazily.. i miss wearing my toy cos i feel like he pays more attention to me lolol but also its kindaboring at work sometimes so i just miss him a lot… he had to go to work so we didnt really talk on my break ..but i worked thru work and i got home with food and played some of my game and drew a bit more and did get some treats for myself on my periodd… i finally got back home and he was home from work too and we watched videos for a while and them played a game on roblox… them i ate dinner and came back and we started watching some south park and ofc ive been drinking a bit,,, might be his way of finding out i took the other 2 shots i had but i feel really nice and this is all i wanted… i just wanted to be really drunk arounf him cos then im all lovey and i feel bad for being so annoying and rude and confusing from being moody on my period but i love him so much bevause he is so sweet to me.. i wish so so bad we were in the same place..

ich liebe dich my love

woke up this morning to seeing my boyfriend jerking off and on his phone… i did get a good morning after a while but i really was jealous because i wanted to cum so bad… i woke up maybe not too horny but just feeling needy.. i asked after a bit if i could touch myself because i did want to make him cum… but i did want to try and cum myself… and he said he would let me !

i grabbed what i like, my vibrator and my dildo, and i did everything i normally would to get myself feeling great… but i just couldnt get there. i was able to make him cum which made me happy, but i knew i wouldnt be able to make myself cum and it weighed down on me more…

today was nice !!! i woke up with my master and i got to have him on call until i got to work, he made me flash my tits the whole drive to work and i did get to make him cum :))) my work day was honestly pretty nice and i did tell a coworker a lot about my boyfriend which was really fun and funny to tell him about !! he wants me to do it more and i think i can do that :))

mostly i miss playing with myself because im allowed to scroll tumblr. i just cant touch. and its something of an annoyance for sure because it helps me fall asleep… but then im falling asleep dripping wet and unsatisfied… and i couldnt even ask to play with myself because he was so tired…

im sure he wouldnt be happy if i found some way to pleasure myself even without my hands… my underwear is just gonna be a bit wet for sure when i sleep and i hope when i wake up as well… i wish i couldve made him cum any more today… but we always have most of the weekend off together so at least i can count on something fun then perhaps… i really really want to use my reward to let myself cum… i dont know how long its been since i did last but i think its why ive been pissy a bit … pent up perhaps…

today started out as one of the first nights i recall in a while not going to sleep and waking up on call… it was quiet for sure but i saw his texts to let him know when i woke up :)) we got on call almost immediately and i got to wake up with him :)) one of the first things i got to do was make him come when i woke up!!

it wasnt long before we were talking about food and what we would want to eat, he ordered food and i went and got myself some food and some alcohol to restock… at like 9 in the morning…

i woke up today on the call alone! :// but master had plans and is gonna be busy until tomorrow… so i knew it was gonna happen.. i got ready for work and everything until my break was fairly normal. i didn’t think we were gonna call on my break because of his plans, but he called me to see me :) he was in the bathroom, and eventually i went into the bathroom… i didn’t think i’d see his cock, let alone make him cum on my break, but it was such a pleasant surprise… i was so happy to help him :)) he had to go, and i had to get back to work, so we ended the call there…

i woke up today and he was still asleep… i was tired myself so i knew he wasnt waking up anytime soon :// i headed to work, where it was pretty normal and just kinda stood around doing nothing much for most of the time… i had an early break and was excited to talk to my master :)) he had to work soon after i got out of work, but i was able to leave early and get home in time to play a game or two with him before he left :))

i then had to fill my time with my other stuff like watching my youtube or playing my pjsk.. even took a nap that he woke me up from… we talked for his commute home and we played more of our game afterwards :)) i ate dinner and came back to being told my favorite thing, i had to make him cum !! and watching shows but we know whats most exciting :))

woke up on call once more, and actually got to see him wake up this time!! i brought him with me on my phone to get ready for work, which did include putting my lovense toy in and lifting up my work clothes to show myself off to him :))

getting into my car, he made me lift my shirt up the whole drive to work, my tits exposed… i got to make him cum too which felt as amazing as always :)) had a fairly normal day at work, was more excited to get back to talking with my master~

i made it home, we both ate food we ordered and watched videos. started looking at games on steam trying to find more stuff to play together, and ended up finding a game we both like but i actually did already have :)) and he got me another game too which was very very sweet… but we played our game for quite a long time, until i ended up having to get dinner…

i also made a mistake while playing our game.. i wasnt thinking and called him stupid.. and i had gotten what i assume is a smaller punishment to his standards.. spanking my ass until he told me to stop.. he did end up using me again in my car when i got dinner, slapping my pussy hard and at his pace.. anything that makes him happy should feel so good because its what i was made for :))

both me and master had to work today, but that didnt stop me from wearing my toy to work and getting excited to see when he would wake up to talk and maybe play with me a bit.. its always such a nice feeling of being owned with the toy snug in my cunt even when its not being used for hours… but that makes it feel even nicer when he does start using it in the middle of me talking to someone :))

today started out easy, i ate some breakfast after waking up and played some of my project sekai… after a bit, sir woke up and wanted me showing myself off…

there was enough going on inside my head that i couldnt perform as well as i would like, and it got a little emotional. ive never been with someone period, let alone as long as we have (even if its not that long) and no one has ever been so supportive and caring and loving and genuine and patient and and and

i could go on and on because i just struggle to grasp being loved like this.. but it feels so good and i know he tells me i cant mess it up very easily.. even if i am stupid :p

of course my little moment stemmed from not really being in “the mood”, but he still wanted to cum, and said he would just find something else to cum to if i was going to be so useless… it made me really sad to think of watching him cum to something else besides me.. i needed a compromise and we worked out me reading tumblr posts he picked out until i could make him cum :)))

i woke up today having to work, but i was able to leave a bit early and relax a bit.. eventually he gets off work and we get on call.. its not long before i am bent over and showing off my holes he wants to fill so bad (said like i dont want that myself.. like a liar)

we watch some videos and i watch him try out a modpack we could play… and eventually i want to make food while im home alone. i never can have an easy time doing anything on my own,, he always likes to take advantage of me and of course i like it, but when im made to force a giant ice ball against my cunt until its lips go numb… it was a whole knew definition of dripping and i really wish it wasnt so enjoyable to do what he says

before long, im back upstairs after eating my food and im told to get clothes on to get the alcohol id implied id hoped to be able to drink tonight.. which all was taken when told to and not a moment later :) he took 3 shots before i even got to take one, but i love watching him do almost anything.. so i cant complain :)) we mainly watched videos and i took a break to eat dinner.. but i did finally get to make him cum once more :))

i woke up still being on call with my boyfriend.. and not long after waking up, i was ordered to stand up and pose and show myself off to him. bending over, showing and spreading my ass, slapping myself around a bit. had our normal routine of watching youtube and eventually i wanted to make food, but i was not gonna be able to do that without making him cum :)) he tried something new, told me to grab a fork and scrape it on my tits... it was tolerable, but especially when i knew i was making him feel so fucking good... it left raised marks too which was more fun than i thought... then later he got to to scrolling through some of my accounts and the stuff ive liked and eventually getting back to youtube. watching him jerk off to whatever else he scrolls through after looking through my tumblr and moving to lovense bond stuff... after asking if i could use some toys, i got to make him cum again right before falling asleep :)) i want to make him happy more than anything and i truly hope i can get more confident to make him happier than ever :))

its been such an. interesting time recently.. but ive never been happier than giving so much of myself to someone else, and im just so happy he is so sweet and caring and genuine.. and can also turn on a dime and expect me in inspection at the count of five…

and everything is still very new, but being on display at almost every second feels really nice knowing at any point he could be jerking off and i cant even tell. i love wearing a toy out and never knowing when he might turn it on and how much.

i really truly feel loved like this and its such a new feeling.. giving up control over parts of me just to beg for the chance to cum, thanking him profusely after he reminds me i should while my head is still in a daze from watching him cum and my legs are still shaking from my climax.