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Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ryker Ā has Ā long Ā accepted Ā that Ā peaceful Ā lives Ā and Ā happy Ā endings Ā only Ā belonged Ā to Ā the Ā wealthy Ā and Ā powerful Ā . Ā but Ā now Ā he Ā was Ā beginning Ā to Ā realize Ā that Ā even Ā freedom Ā and Ā choice Ā were Ā things Ā he Ā could Ā never Ā afford Ā .Ā Ā Ā even Ā with Ā his Ā sinister Ā reputation Ā and Ā prominent Ā rank Ā in Ā the Ā gang Ā and Ā in Ā the Ā rings Ā , Ā at Ā the Ā end Ā of Ā the Ā day Ā , Ā he Ā could Ā only Ā ever Ā be Ā a Ā pawn Ā . Ā the Ā words Ā raven Ā spoke Ā held Ā some Ā truth Ā in Ā them Ā . Ā yes Ā , Ā heĀ Ā couldĀ Ā have Ā taken Ā her Ā with Ā him Ā , Ā and Ā yes Ā , Ā theyĀ Ā couldĀ Ā have Ā ran Ā away Ā together Ā . Ā but Ā there Ā was Ā another Ā truth Ā that Ā raven Ā failed Ā to Ā see Ā . Ā and Ā it Ā was Ā that Ā both Ā scenarios Ā ended Ā with Ā just Ā the Ā same Ā tragedy Ā as Ā they Ā were Ā facing Ā now Ā .Ā Ā it Ā mightāve Ā been Ā both Ā a Ā foolish Ā and Ā selfish Ā act Ā to Ā leave Ā raven Ā in Ā the Ā care Ā of Ā her Ā fatherās Ā wealth Ā , Ā but Ā at Ā the Ā time Ā , Ā it Ā was Ā the Ā option Ā that Ā guaranteed Ā her Ā safety Ā . Ā if Ā ryker Ā didnāt Ā have Ā anyĀ Ā realĀ Ā power Ā to Ā protect Ā her Ā now Ā , Ā Ā Ā what Ā power Ā did Ā he Ā have Ā two Ā years Ā ago Ā ? Ā and Ā that Ā was Ā the Ā reality Ā that Ā killed Ā him Ā over Ā and Ā over Ā āĀ Ā he Ā had Ā no Ā power Ā . Ā and Ā raven Ā breaking Ā down Ā in Ā front Ā of Ā him Ā over Ā her Ā suffering Ā was Ā the Ā most Ā painful Ā reminder Ā of Ā that Ā fact Ā . Ā heās Ā never Ā known Ā what Ā itās Ā like Ā to Ā have Ā a Ā family Ā , Ā to Ā hold Ā something Ā sacred Ā in Ā his Ā life Ā . Ā until Ā raven Ā came Ā along Ā . Ā and Ā it Ā destroyed Ā him Ā that Ā he Ā could Ā do Ā nothing Ā to Ā protect Ā her Ā , Ā much Ā less Ā deserve Ā her Ā . Ā there Ā was Ā nothing Ā he Ā could Ā offer Ā then Ā , Ā and Ā there Ā was Ā nothing Ā he Ā could Ā offer Ā now Ā . Ā and Ā she Ā deserved Ā so Ā much Ā more Ā than Ā nothing Ā . Ā so Ā much Ā more Ā than Ā him Ā .Ā Ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā he Ā could Ā argue Ā and Ā tell Ā her Ā all Ā of Ā this Ā , Ā but Ā there Ā was Ā barely Ā a Ā point Ā to Ā it Ā . Ā so Ā he Ā took Ā her Ā blows Ā head-on Ā with Ā very Ā little Ā resistance Ā . Ā it Ā was Ā the Ā least Ā he Ā deserved Ā . Ā ryker Ā wished Ā , Ā more Ā than Ā anything Ā , Ā that Ā sheād Ā actually Ā hit Ā him Ā ā Ā land Ā a Ā strike Ā , Ā make Ā him Ā bleed Ā , Ā break Ā a Ā rib Ā , Ā breakĀ Ā somethingĀ Ā . Ā but Ā all Ā he Ā got Ā were Ā several Ā shoves Ā backward Ā until Ā there Ā was Ā some Ā distance Ā between Ā them Ā .Ā Ā Ā with Ā survival Ā being Ā the Ā only Ā way Ā he Ā knew Ā how Ā to Ā live Ā , Ā remorse Ā was Ā hardly Ā a Ā familiar Ā thingĀ Ā to Ā ryker Ā . Ā and Ā yet Ā ,Ā Ā Ā seeing Ā the Ā devastation Ā he Ā caused Ā raven Ā , Ā overwhelming Ā waves Ā of Ā it Ā threatened Ā to Ā break Ā him Ā apart Ā .Ā Ā Ā breathing Ā was Ā becoming Ā an Ā increasingly Ā excruciating Ā chore Ā to Ā do . Ā coming Ā here Ā was Ā an Ā even Ā bigger Ā mistake Ā than Ā he Ā thought Ā .Ā Ā Ā ā Ā no Ā ā Ā no, Ā you Ā donāt Ā . Ā you Ā deserveĀ Ā noneĀ Ā of Ā this Ā . Ā ā Ā when Ā she Ā crumbled Ā to Ā the Ā ground Ā , Ā all Ā ryker Ā wanted Ā to Ā do Ā was Ā run Ā to Ā her Ā side Ā and Ā engulf Ā her Ā in Ā an Ā embrace Ā but Ā he Ā was Ā certain Ā that Ā he Ā would Ā do Ā more Ā harm Ā than Ā good Ā . Ā so Ā for Ā a Ā while Ā , Ā he Ā painstakingly Ā tried Ā to Ā keep Ā his Ā distance Ā , Ā but Ā the Ā sight Ā of Ā her Ā breaking Ā was Ā unbearable Ā and Ā the Ā space Ā between Ā them Ā was Ā even Ā more Ā so Ā . Ā and Ā so Ā against Ā his Ā better Ā judgment Ā , Ā he Ā rushed Ā beside Ā her Ā , Ā making Ā sure Ā he Ā didnāt Ā make Ā any Ā unwanted Ā contact Ā . Ā but Ā everything Ā about Ā him Ā ā Ā from Ā his Ā arm Ā hovering Ā right Ā behind Ā her Ā to Ā the Ā way Ā he Ā was Ā kneeling, Ā facing Ā her Ā ā Ā was Ā ready Ā to Ā just Ā pull Ā herĀ Ā into Ā the Ā warmth Ā and Ā safety Ā of Ā his Ā arms Ā .Ā Ā Ā ā Ā raven Ā , Ā i Ā ā Ā ā Ā what Ā was Ā there Ā to Ā say Ā ? Ā what Ā could Ā he Ā say Ā that Ā wouldnāt Ā make Ā her Ā hurt Ā ? Ā there Ā was Ā that Ā awful Ā pounding Ā in Ā his Ā chest Ā again Ā , Ā begging Ā , Ā demanding Ā release Ā . Ā and Ā at Ā this Ā point Ā , Ā ryker Ā was Ā beyond Ā restraint Ā . Ā ā Ā i Ā wonāt Ā let Ā anything Ā happen Ā to Ā you Ā ā Ā it Ā was Ā a Ā dangerous Ā promise Ā to Ā make Ā her Ā , Ā to Ā say Ā the Ā least Ā . Ā and Ā yet Ā the Ā weight Ā that Ā lifted Ā off Ā his Ā chest Ā was Ā undeniable Ā . Ā as Ā if Ā being Ā in Ā her Ā life Ā again Ā was Ā what Ā he Ā was Ā really Ā meant Ā to Ā do Ā . Ā ā Ā i Ā failed Ā you Ā last Ā time Ā , Ā but Ā if Ā ā Ā if Ā you Ā let Ā me Ā , Ā i Ā donāt Ā care Ā if Ā i Ā die Ā just Ā to Ā keep Ā you Ā safe Ā . Ā āĀ Ā Ā Ā āāāāāā
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¤ą³ Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āæĀ Ā Ā Ā Ā sinceĀ Ā theĀ Ā dayĀ Ā heĀ Ā leftĀ Ā ,Ā Ā ravenĀ Ā alwaysĀ Ā secretlyĀ Ā hopedĀ Ā thatĀ Ā heādĀ Ā comeĀ Ā backĀ Ā forĀ Ā herĀ Ā .Ā Ā thatĀ Ā theĀ Ā promisesĀ Ā thatĀ Ā onceĀ Ā reassuredĀ Ā herĀ Ā freedomĀ Ā ,Ā Ā toĀ Ā livingĀ Ā aĀ Ā slightlyĀ Ā normalĀ Ā lifeĀ Ā thanĀ Ā sheĀ Ā hadĀ Ā ,Ā Ā wouldĀ Ā beĀ Ā fulfilledĀ Ā withĀ Ā hisĀ Ā helpĀ Ā .Ā Ā butĀ Ā asĀ Ā daysĀ Ā wentĀ Ā byĀ Ā Ā ,Ā Ā sheĀ Ā realizedĀ Ā thatĀ Ā heāsĀ Ā neverĀ Ā comingĀ Ā backĀ Ā .Ā Ā thatĀ Ā whateverĀ Ā offerĀ Ā herĀ Ā fatherĀ Ā madeĀ Ā withĀ Ā himĀ Ā mustĀ Ā haveĀ Ā beenĀ Ā moreĀ Ā thanĀ Ā enoughĀ Ā toĀ Ā turnĀ Ā hisĀ Ā backĀ Ā onĀ Ā herĀ Ā andĀ Ā neverĀ Ā lookĀ Ā backĀ Ā .Ā Ā thenĀ Ā onĀ Ā ,Ā Ā sheĀ Ā expectedĀ Ā lessĀ Ā andĀ Ā lessĀ Ā ofĀ Ā hisĀ Ā returnĀ Ā ,Ā Ā andĀ Ā theĀ Ā promisesĀ Ā heĀ Ā onceĀ Ā saidĀ Ā areĀ Ā merelyĀ Ā meantĀ Ā toĀ Ā beĀ Ā brokenĀ Ā .Ā Ā inĀ Ā theĀ Ā endĀ Ā ,Ā Ā ravenĀ Ā onlyĀ Ā hadĀ Ā herselfĀ Ā toĀ Ā fightĀ Ā forĀ Ā herĀ Ā ownĀ Ā freedomĀ Ā .Ā Ā sheĀ Ā didnātĀ Ā needĀ Ā himĀ Ā thenĀ Ā ,Ā Ā sheĀ Ā doesnātĀ Ā needĀ Ā himĀ Ā nowĀ Ā .Ā Ā thereĀ Ā areĀ Ā soĀ Ā manyĀ Ā womenĀ Ā outĀ Ā thereĀ Ā whoāsĀ Ā aĀ Ā betterĀ Ā suitĀ Ā forĀ Ā himĀ Ā thanĀ Ā herĀ Ā .Ā Ā theyĀ Ā bothĀ Ā liveĀ Ā twoĀ Ā veryĀ Ā differentĀ Ā livesĀ Ā andĀ Ā statusĀ Ā thatĀ Ā inĀ Ā theĀ Ā endĀ Ā ,Ā Ā theyĀ Ā justĀ Ā arenātĀ Ā meantĀ Ā toĀ Ā beĀ Ā togetherĀ Ā .Ā Ā asĀ Ā timeĀ Ā passesĀ Ā byĀ Ā ,Ā Ā sheĀ Ā wouldĀ Ā numbĀ Ā herĀ Ā heartĀ Ā andĀ Ā findĀ Ā herĀ Ā comfortĀ Ā withĀ Ā meaninglessĀ Ā affairsĀ Ā ,Ā Ā wakingĀ Ā upĀ Ā inĀ Ā anotherĀ Ā personāsĀ Ā bedĀ Ā untilĀ Ā whatĀ Ā sheĀ Ā feelsĀ Ā forĀ Ā himĀ Ā ,Ā Ā diesĀ Ā outĀ Ā .Ā Ā forĀ Ā aĀ Ā whileĀ Ā ,Ā Ā itĀ Ā workedĀ Ā .Ā Ā itĀ Ā seemedĀ Ā asĀ Ā ifĀ Ā rykerĀ Ā neverĀ Ā existedĀ Ā inĀ Ā herĀ Ā lifeĀ Ā .Ā Ā untilĀ Ā heĀ Ā reappearedĀ Ā whenĀ Ā everythingĀ Ā seemsĀ Ā toĀ Ā beĀ Ā perfectĀ Ā againĀ Ā .Ā Ā allĀ Ā theĀ Ā feelingsĀ Ā sheĀ Ā feelsĀ Ā justĀ Ā forĀ Ā himĀ Ā comesĀ Ā rushingĀ Ā backĀ Ā toĀ Ā herĀ Ā allĀ Ā atĀ Ā onceĀ Ā inĀ Ā anĀ Ā overwhelmingĀ Ā emotionĀ Ā .Ā Ā allĀ Ā sheĀ Ā canĀ Ā doĀ Ā isĀ Ā giveĀ Ā inĀ Ā andĀ Ā pourĀ Ā itĀ Ā allĀ Ā outĀ Ā .Ā Ā letĀ Ā herselfĀ Ā beĀ Ā vulnerableĀ Ā forĀ Ā aĀ Ā quickĀ Ā secondĀ Ā .Ā Ā thisĀ Ā isĀ Ā goingĀ Ā toĀ Ā beĀ Ā theĀ Ā lastĀ Ā timeĀ Ā sheāllĀ Ā everĀ Ā shedĀ Ā aĀ Ā tearĀ Ā forĀ Ā himĀ Ā likeĀ Ā thisĀ Ā .Ā Ā Ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā nowĀ Ā thatĀ Ā everythingāsĀ Ā beenĀ Ā releasedĀ Ā offĀ Ā herĀ Ā chestĀ Ā ,Ā Ā ravenĀ Ā triesĀ Ā toĀ Ā clearĀ Ā herĀ Ā headĀ Ā andĀ Ā controlĀ Ā herĀ Ā breathingĀ Ā throughĀ Ā theĀ Ā sobsĀ Ā thatĀ Ā eludesĀ Ā herĀ Ā lipsĀ Ā .Ā Ā slenderĀ Ā handsĀ Ā coverĀ Ā herĀ Ā messyĀ Ā andĀ Ā wetĀ Ā featuresĀ Ā toĀ Ā wipeĀ Ā awayĀ Ā theĀ Ā tearsĀ Ā fromĀ Ā herĀ Ā cheeksĀ Ā .Ā Ā forĀ Ā yearsĀ Ā ,Ā Ā sheĀ Ā restrainedĀ Ā herĀ Ā ownĀ Ā emotionsĀ Ā ,Ā Ā nowĀ Ā ,Ā Ā aĀ Ā hugeĀ Ā weightĀ Ā hasĀ Ā beenĀ Ā liftedĀ Ā offĀ Ā herĀ Ā chestĀ Ā .Ā Ā perhapsĀ Ā throughĀ Ā thisĀ Ā ,Ā Ā sheĀ Ā canĀ Ā finallyĀ Ā moveĀ Ā onĀ Ā tooĀ Ā .Ā Ā howeverĀ Ā ,Ā Ā knowingĀ Ā herselfĀ Ā ,Ā Ā thatāsĀ Ā leastĀ Ā likelyĀ Ā toĀ Ā happenĀ Ā .Ā Ā ravenāsĀ Ā anythingĀ Ā butĀ Ā smartĀ Ā whenĀ Ā itĀ Ā comesĀ Ā toĀ Ā loveĀ Ā .Ā Ā outĀ Ā ofĀ Ā allĀ Ā relationshipsĀ Ā sheāsĀ Ā beenĀ Ā throughĀ Ā ,Ā Ā rykerāsĀ Ā theĀ Ā onlyĀ Ā oneĀ Ā whoāsĀ Ā madeĀ Ā herĀ Ā heartĀ Ā beatĀ Ā abnormallyĀ Ā fastĀ Ā andĀ Ā theĀ Ā onlyĀ Ā oneĀ Ā whoāsĀ Ā gotĀ Ā herĀ Ā thinkingĀ Ā thatĀ Ā ifĀ Ā itāsĀ Ā notĀ Ā goingĀ Ā toĀ Ā beĀ Ā rykerĀ Ā sheādĀ Ā spendĀ Ā theĀ Ā restĀ Ā ofĀ Ā herĀ Ā daysĀ Ā withĀ Ā ,Ā Ā thenĀ Ā noĀ Ā oneĀ Ā shouldĀ Ā beĀ Ā ableĀ Ā toĀ Ā takeĀ Ā hisĀ Ā placeĀ Ā atĀ Ā allĀ Ā .Ā Ā sheāllĀ Ā onlyĀ Ā acceptĀ Ā livingĀ Ā foreverĀ Ā ifĀ Ā itāsĀ Ā withĀ Ā himĀ Ā .Ā Ā whileĀ Ā sheĀ Ā triesĀ Ā toĀ Ā collectĀ Ā herselfĀ Ā ,Ā Ā sheĀ Ā canĀ Ā feelĀ Ā hisĀ Ā presenceĀ Ā crouchedĀ Ā beforeĀ Ā herĀ Ā .Ā Ā andĀ Ā maybeĀ Ā sheāsĀ Ā goingĀ Ā crazyĀ Ā ,Ā Ā butĀ Ā sheĀ Ā imaginesĀ Ā hisĀ Ā handĀ Ā reachingĀ Ā outĀ Ā toĀ Ā herĀ Ā ,Ā Ā andĀ Ā forĀ Ā aĀ Ā momentĀ Ā ,Ā Ā ravenĀ Ā wantsĀ Ā toĀ Ā beĀ Ā wrappedĀ Ā aroundĀ Ā hisĀ Ā warmthĀ Ā .Ā Ā anotherĀ Ā partĀ Ā ofĀ Ā herĀ Ā wantsĀ Ā toĀ Ā pushĀ Ā himĀ Ā awayĀ Ā ,Ā Ā getĀ Ā upĀ Ā ,Ā Ā andĀ Ā leaveĀ Ā .Ā Ā ifĀ Ā sheāsĀ Ā smartĀ Ā enoughĀ Ā ,Ā Ā sheĀ Ā wouldāveĀ Ā doneĀ Ā theĀ Ā latterĀ Ā .Ā Ā yetĀ Ā ,Ā Ā itĀ Ā takesĀ Ā herĀ Ā aĀ Ā fewĀ Ā moreĀ Ā minutesĀ Ā inĀ Ā herĀ Ā positionĀ Ā beforeĀ Ā finallyĀ Ā puttingĀ Ā bothĀ Ā handsĀ Ā downĀ Ā andĀ Ā forcingĀ Ā herselfĀ Ā toĀ Ā standĀ Ā upĀ Ā .Ā Ā faceĀ Ā dampedĀ Ā andĀ Ā eyesĀ Ā visiblyĀ Ā swollenĀ Ā fromĀ Ā cryingĀ Ā .Ā Ā sheĀ Ā hasĀ Ā toĀ Ā getĀ Ā awayĀ Ā fromĀ Ā hereĀ Ā nowĀ Ā beforeĀ Ā sheĀ Ā explodesĀ Ā againĀ Ā fromĀ Ā eachĀ Ā wordĀ Ā thatĀ Ā escapesĀ Ā hisĀ Ā lipsĀ Ā .Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā thanksĀ Ā ,Ā Ā butĀ Ā noĀ Ā thanksĀ Ā .Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā sheĀ Ā saysĀ Ā throughĀ Ā shakyĀ Ā breathĀ Ā ,Ā Ā darkĀ Ā huesĀ Ā avoidingĀ Ā hisĀ Ā gazeĀ Ā .Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā ifĀ Ā iĀ Ā canĀ Ā takeĀ Ā careĀ Ā ofĀ Ā myselfĀ Ā beforeĀ Ā ,Ā Ā iĀ Ā canĀ Ā takeĀ Ā careĀ Ā ofĀ Ā myselfĀ Ā againĀ Ā .Ā Ā youāreĀ Ā justĀ Ā goingĀ Ā toĀ Ā wasteĀ Ā yourĀ Ā timeĀ Ā andĀ Ā yourĀ Ā lifeĀ Ā onĀ Ā meĀ Ā .Ā Ā soĀ Ā goĀ Ā onĀ Ā ,Ā Ā doĀ Ā whateverĀ Ā youĀ Ā wantĀ Ā toĀ Ā doĀ Ā .Ā Ā iĀ Ā donātĀ Ā careĀ Ā .Ā Ā iāmĀ Ā goingĀ Ā backĀ Ā .Ā Ā ā
