18+ BLOG! She/Her, 28 y.o. pansexual.
Pantalone and Mortelix are my life. I ship Dottalone until I die.
Main interests- fat/WG art, Genshin, Epic 7, Fire Emblem + some others UwU
Welcome to my blog! I'm eyesludge, She/Her, 28 y.o. pansexual. Expect a lot of shipping, mainly Dottolone, Zhongchi, Twobuki, Twobukan, Mitwomiki, MortxSenya, and more~ My favourite series are Genshin Impact, Danganronpa, Epic Seven, Fire Emblem, and Pokémon.
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This is an 18+ blog where I post and share Naughty Things™. ALSO> While my blog is a mix of many things I like, be aware I do post weight gain / fat kink content! If you want to follow me for some things but do NOT want to see this fetish content, please block the tag #fat kink before following. All my fetish posts will feature this tag so you should be able to browse my other stuff safely then! I will also sometimes draw injury/blood detail and these will be tagged with #cw blood or #cw injury
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#◇fatui feofan◇ and #◇fatui marin◇ - My OCs! And yes, I made a Fatui OC called Feofan... Guess what noise I made when Pantalone's true name dropped?...
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the worst part of summer is that people get sooo comfortable expressing their disgust at having to see other people’s bodies. they’re always complaining about wrinkly old men at the nude hot springs or fat women in bikinis at the beach. I hate that shit. if you’re not capable of being normal about bodies you personally don’t find attractive, just turn your head to look at something else! and if you’re not smart enough to do that, then at least do the rest of us the courtesy of suffering in silence, because we don’t wanna hear your weird comments. thanks.
I see the masks worn by 35, 45, and 65 as part of some optical treatment Zandik went through, given he needed glasses at 25 but only needed a monocle when he was elderly.
I ALSO see Pantalone asking if he could undergo this treatment for his own vision problems (pun intended) only for Zandik to refuse.
Cuz. Yknow. Pantalone looks so fucking hot with his glasses.
While I am completely convinced that Pantalone and Dottore were, in fact, toxic enablers whose like-minded disdain for Teyvat's laws turned their relationship into a dangerous echo chamber that likely drove them both to extremes over the last 400 years, I think one thing I really appreciate (and which I haven't seen much talk over) is that Dottore's care for Pantalone's well-being was absolutely not one-sided.
Despite not having a single thought for his own health or safety, Pantalone clearly knows Dottore's mental state is a trainwreck, and we get to see Pantalone try multiple times to confront Dottore's (well, Omega's) unhealthy mindset and negative self-image.
In particular, Pantalone seems fixated on reminding Omega of Dottore's humanity--he insists that Omega is Zandik, the person, not just a Segment, and repeatedly refuses to accept that Omega is incapable of human feeling.
Putting aside the potentially very dark reason here (claiming that Omega is Zandik could simply be a way of avoiding the grief of losing the original Zandik--if he's still there, Pantalone doesn't have to mourn him), I think this is actually an incredible degree of kindness to Dottore.
It is clear, and not even particularly subtle, that the Segments (especially Omega) struggled with issues of self-identity, of not knowing whether to think of themselves as "Zandik" or as separate entities, unable to move on from the mindsets they were locked into upon their creation, unable to differentiate into their own people over time, unable to surpass the creator to become "real." Omega makes it particularly clear that he disdained this lifestyle and the other Segments, refusing to see them as anything but extensions of "himself," rather than their own individuals (because his egoism is a poorly projected mask he uses to hide his own struggle to see himself as an individual and not "the one who should be Zandik but isn't"). Omega ultimately craves to subsume the other Segments, becoming "the only Dottore" so that he can finally achieve a whole identity and personhood for himself. There's so, so, so much existential horror in this concept that it's hard to even conceive of how miserable a life it would be--mentally understanding yourself as someone while knowing that you are actually a something instead.
Out of everyone in the game, the only character we see actually affirming Omega's identity, telling him that he is a person, he has a name, he is entitled to the very identity he was born with... is Pantalone. Whatever his reasons--selfish or twisted as they may be--Pantalone is the only person treating Omega like a real human being, and the only one we see over and over trying to remind Omega that, deep down, he still has a human heart.
Even that final statement:
Is a powerful exercise in recognizing agency, allowing Omega to decide for himself what identity he wants to finally, finally lay claim to.
Pantalone doesn't just care about Dottore's intelligence or the benefits he's reaped by being Dottore's financial backer. He cares about Dottore's sense of self, his identity, his very existence.
And the game goes out of its way to make it clear that isn't just a one-off thing--Pantalone's been prodding at Dottore's mental issues for years, trying to get Dottore to work his way through some of his distorted thinking since well back in their relationship. The Anomalous Tree Marrow notes:
In this case, "selfishness" seems to refer to not only the idea of being literally self-centered (i.e. Omega wanting to value his own existence above the other Segments or even the original Zandik), but also to Omega's clear self-hatred. If all the Segments are Zandik, then viewing Zandik as weak, pathetic, or in need of replacement means seeing yourself as weak and pathetic; believing you are "better" than the others means first admitting that "you" were never perfect.
Omega's desire to kill the other Segments, to claim Zandik's identity, to elevate himself to the position of godhood, to fight with everything he has against the fate the heavens assigned "him", all ultimately stem from an inability to accept himself, a constant selfish refusal of reality, an all-consuming desire to achieve more, to learn more, to be more.
Pantalone, in fact, implies this with his metaphor about the praying criminal:
Dottore misunderstands and takes the metaphor literally, but Pantalone's point is clarified later for the viewers:
Over and over again, Pantalone tried to warn Omega that his views and behaviors towards himself were utterly self-destructive, that his self-centered fixation with being "Dottore" stems from an inherent disgust for "Zandik" [himself] and his very human limitations. Quietly, if perhaps too gently, Pantalone has been trying for years to help Omega rethink his fragmented self-identity and reconsider the value of his life as a person.
And it seems that he almost, almost made it through to Omega sometimes:
To an appropriate degree, of course.
Omega can never reflect too deeply on himself or his course of action, because doing so would force him to confront the gaping abyss that lies between the inflated, narcissistic front he projects and the significantly more fragile sense of inadequate "self" that lies below it.
It even seems that Pantalone was able to understand Dottore's mental needs much more than anyone else, being also the only character we see to deliberately, clearly, and repeatedly give Omega the validation he so blatantly fishes for, over and over:
Make all the jokes you want about Dottore giving the Traveler 16578698 chances to join forces, but the reason he did that was because--even while insisting he doesn't remotely care--he obviously desperately craves understanding, acceptance, and respect from others. There's a reason the very first thing he asked Pierro was "Are you going to reject me like everyone else?"
Pantalone knows that Omega--well, all versions of Dottore most likely--needed acceptance, admiration, and confirmation of respect from others, and he went out of his way to repeatedly reassure Omega, giving his praise and accolades wherever it was due, while literally every other character in the game--even Dottore's other Fatui allies!--have not a single positive word to say.
While everyone is busy talking about how much Dottore cared for Pantalone's physical well-being, I think it's incredible just how obviously that care was returned. Pantalone cared! He really did. Dottore tried to protect Pantalone's health despite all of Pantalone's attempts to self-sabotage, but Pantalone tried to protect Dottore's absolutely fractured mental health despite every action leading Dottore closer to total self-destruction.
The irony, of course, is that Pantalone's own mental health is clearly a disaster too, and Dottore has no regard for life that isn't Pantalone's, so this was one of the most obvious (and frankly sad) examples of "the blind leading the blind"--neither one of these characters is remotely healthy, but they still tried their best to help each other. Clearly neither one of them knows how to fix the incredibly broken people that they are, but they were trying! Even as their convictions and goals dragged them both further and further into the dark, they still saw each other's suffering and tried to alleviate it, where no one else in the entire world bothered.
It's really amazing to me how much Hoyo managed to pack into just one little patch. In terms of using the narrative to convey tons of information about characters' relationships, mental states, and personal narrative arcs, I really can't think of another patch that did it quite as well as this one.
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How do you think the others reacted when official hater Zandik walks in one day with a malnourished bullet ridden 20-something test subject and says "I think we should give him a job."
You know, I feel like arguably a possible avenune of Dottore characterization (that is really optional & up to interpretation, of course. Also arguably MOST applicable to omega specifically), is that, as far as I can tell, he's like.. genuinely really dramatic? LMAO?? but there's so much he does that's Just for the sake of drama. His overdramatic poses as Dr. Data. His dramatic entrance in the Sumeru story quest that, mind you, he specifically orchestrated. He literally puts effort into setting a Tone every time you see him???? & Like, (I haven't done the Nod Krai quest I've only seen out of context stuff so I can't speak much on that), but for the recent Sumeru quest.. IDK, it was probably just intended for flashback stuff for storytelling in game, but Dottore literally summoned facsimiles of Wanderer's old friends behind him, and then cinematically cast them off the ledge, AND put Wanderer back in Scaramouche outfit for literally like half a scene JUST to be Dramatic. Dottore said outright he didn't even want to return Wanderer's old life to the current day& Wanderer was right back to his usual outfit a second later. The ONLY reason Dottore did that was to be dramatic. And all this ties to his whole "im a Villain I'm a monster" internal thing obviously, but even calling yourself a 'demon that [you] could never have hoped to beat' (to Niwa when Niwa was dying) is SOOO?? Like??? That's COMICALLY dramatic dude. I'm sorry I keep saying dramatic but it IS idk how else to describe it.
Theres obviously an aspect of how deeply he believes it & has SO deeply internalized and as such perpetuates his own osctraization, but if you just think past that for a second, it's SO OBJECTIBELY DRAMATIC. ITS SO FUNNY. And again, I guess a lot of it is glossed over because it's Genshin and anime characters are just cool and stuff & it's kind of expected that antagonists are like that. But if we think about it as an active choice on Dottore's part, which I guess technically it is..??? Again, Omega consistently seems to put effort into creating a Tone every time we see him. He's the one who chose to do all those cunty extra movement flairs in both boss fights. And, like, we don't have many examples of the other segments talking, but we Know Omega talks with SUCH a dramatic drawl??????? Kind of????? He has a VERY specific cadence compared to the other segmengs I think. It's soo. Omega/Zandik/Dottore has been alive for 400 dramatic, dramatic years.
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I know you post wg stuff sometimes so I was just curious: do you think Pantalone would try to fatten up Zandik as a kind of love language? He’s probably experienced a lot of food insecurity and starvation/malnutrition due to growing up in poverty so maybe he tries to compensate by spoiling Dottore and his segments with plenty of meals and treats so he doesn’t worry about them going hungry like he did.
Thanks for the ask~ Ah sorry to my WG followers I haven't posted much art recently, I promise there is art on the way!
In a word, ABSOLUTELY. Pantalone works so well with WG scenarios with the poverty-to-wealthy background. And with Dottore not taking care of himself properly (working ridiculous shifts and living off stimulants rather than "waste time" eating) he clearly needs to step in.
In my personal headcanon Feofan was abandoned by his family as he was considered just another mouth to feed. His last memory of them was being told they'd "be right back, stay here." He realised that they viewed him like a parasite, consuming while returning nothing. As such Pantalone directly associates gifting food without expecting anything in return as showing you want someone, you value them and you won't abandon them.
I imagine for young Segments like 8 and 18 it's very parental. Keen on them eating healthy but slips lots of sweet treats!
For Zandik and older Segments where the relationship is romantic? No holding back. Every pound they gain is proof Pantalone loves them and would do anything to take care of him. It doesn't hurt that Dottore wears the new weight extremely well at every age.
And of course when Dottore realises the meaning behind it, he would reciprocate. I think Pantalone would naturally have an unhealthy relationship with food. He craves it now he has it but he's also paranoid about how others view him. Dottore helps with science jargon about nutrition and eventually just bluntly telling him how good he looks with a belly. <3