LIVE FOR THEM

A highly selective LEE CHEONG-SAN from the Netflix series ALL OF US ARE DEAD (based entirely on the show for portrayal). Contains mature content on this blog such as: gore, cannibalism, and viruses -- follow at your own discretion. This blog is eighteen plus, meaning I do not interact with minors.

Marzipan. 26. They/them.

GOOGLE DOC | PROMO | WIRE KIM CHEOL-SU  | JANG WU-JIN | JANG HAN-SEO HWANG JUN-HO | CHOI MYUNG-HEE | MULTIMUSE

A DEAD GIRL WALKING,   A MOVING FORCE OF ROTTING FLESH AND BITING HUNGER THAT ONLY GREW THE MORE SHE FORCED IT DOWN        —        IT JUMPED BACK WITH JUST AS MUCH STRENGTH,   ITCHING AND GNAWING IN HER THROAT,   HER GUMS.    she could feel the twitching in her muscles,   all over her body with an ache she could not remedy,   and a preemptive guilt that would end up swallowing her whole before anything else.     could she remain purely logical and sane throughout,   would she serve herself as the prime example of a sacrificial lamb,   or would she simply succumb to the violent temptations that course through her ?    these three paths set out like a branch in her mind,   it is all she thinks about in the silence,   in the gaps of imposed solitude when nobody pays her any mind        —        IT IS WHAT ACTS AS HER ANCHOR WHEN THE BLOOD RUSHING THROUGH SU - HYEOK’S VEINS BECOME UNBEARABLE.     even now,   as she stands in front of cheong - san,   she can feel crescents being dug into her flesh.     harder,   harder,   until she feels the warm liquid seeping through a new open wound that would just heal.     and she hates that it does not hurt as much as she needs it to.     it is better than tearing away at her friend.

“  i don’t know what to say to him.     i never do.  ”        this is the truth,   perhaps pathetic to even admit out loud when she is sure he could not offer a solution.     that is always how it’d been     :     CHOI NAM - RA LISTENS,   DIGESTS,   RETAINS        …        WHY SPEAK WHEN THAT ENERGY COULD BE BETTER SERVED ELSE WHERE ?         “  and if i do say something,   i can tell it isn’t what’s needed.     wouldn’t the others be better at consoling him ?    or checking on him.     i was once told i had the warmth of a rock sunk in the ocean.  ”         they were all too young to worry about whether the next few minutes would earn them peace or another attempt to cheat death,   and yet         …          “  favor ?  ”          if there is anything she can say about cheong - san,   it is his ability to continuously intrigue her        —        whether it be from a source of knowing it was foolish or clever.     SHE WIPES THE BLOOD OFF HER HANDS WITH THE INSIDE OF HER SLEEVES     :      IF ONLY IT COULD BE SO EASY WITH THE REST THAT COATED HER LIPS AND TONGUE.     head cocks to the side the slightest as she bites on his line,         “  as long as the favor isn’t covering for you should you choose to disregard my advice and set off running towards your demise.  ” 

♔‘ﾟ ‣ ❝   이청산   ❞ → THERE’S A SCOFF THAT IS produced , his gaze fluttering over toward On-jo ; he couldn’t tell her how much he related to her assessment, because she would likely brush it off as him knowing more than he lets on. Everyone in the school assumed them dating, placed their bets on it so vehemently that it almost humiliated Cheong-san to figure out, which had made him feel all the more ridiculous that he could even have thought about romance in this climate. When the day was over and On-jo’s heart was broken by another reality, what could he do but be her friend in the end? After all, she had told him to his face that everyone she cared about was now dead -- everyone. The sting had been enough for him to cry silently to himself, miserable and rejected ; she cared enough, in the end, to not want him dead, but the words still clung heavily to his mind, squeezing his brain to know that when he died...at least there would be fewer tears shed, wouldn’t there? ❝ I think...I think he knows that what you say is important, ❞ he started off, his gaze shifting from On-jo back to Nam-ra. ❝ Some people say too much and others say too little, but you have a good balance that makes what you say matter every time he needs it. ❞

name: marz / marzi / marzipan (depends on the person)! 

pronouns: they/them

preference of communication: Discord works well enough, but I am such a disaster icon of ADD that I forget to reply to things and sometimes I sleep at odd hours ; you really gotta have some patience! Although IMs work sometimes, too, so I am okay with them!

most active muse: It’s really hard to say? I blog/muse hop a super-sized amount of time. I try to be consistent and get my drafts done, but it doesn’t always work out ;;; so I really am sorry to anyone who waits on me! ; o ; I always come back to each of my blogs if I have enough traction on them, though!

experience/how many years: I started writing on tumblr in 2014, so it’s been roughly...nine years now? But I rp’d as a child with my cousin on our cellphones, haha! We had some stupid ideas of what the world was back then and, thankfully, I’ve improved as a writer and person as I grew up!

best experience: Any time that ANYONE says that they can hear my muse’s voice in my writing? That makes me feel like I am doing the character justice and it sticks with me, you know?

rp pet peeves: It’s hard to say... I try to let a lot of things slide off my back with a simple vent with friends if it bothers me. Nothing is worth STAYING mad at, but the worst experiences I had were people who would take my words and then proceed to turn others against me? Like, I really, really hate this petty childish mannerism that people have about dealing with problems. Turning others against someone is what high schoolers do and I interact with people who are adults, not children! If something offends you, hurts you, or makes you sad, TELL ME! I won’t mind if you need to vent to your friends (notice I use the word: FRIENDS, not just random people in the fandom that you want to make mad at me for gratification of some kind) because it genuinely made you feel bad, but as long as we talk it out or you drop it and move on because everyone has a sour moment, then I don’t care. I just want people to not be immature! 

fluff, angst, or smut: out of these three? angst more than likely. While I enjoy fluff a lot, it turns to this really...clockwork aspect a lot of times, which isn’t inherently bad, but I like things moving around and, out of the three, I feel like angst does that job really well! If I were to push for another category added? It’d be CHARACTER BUILDING (which can be any of those categories, though I am not a smut person) because I find that this really does motivate me a TON! Angst does it a whole lot because muses tend to reveal sides of themselves that aren’t visible a lot, but you can do it in fluff too! You can see the kindness of another that isn’t there often, which is so so so so valuable to development! So, I raze this question to the ground and replace all with character building as my preferences!  

plots or memes: Plots are great, but I really do have to emphasize that we DO SOMETHING with what we make together! I do not like to just plot and then sit there like, “Oh, gosh, do we thread it? Do we...do we do it??? Do I do it?” Because then I get nervous that my plot points were bad and then I get into this anxious cycle about approaching LMFAO ; really, it’s a ME thing mostly because I should approach again. However? Memes are fantastic but they take longer for me to respond to because I sit there going, “Okay, how do I do this amazingly so they’re hooked?” If it’s a random ask box thing, I sometimes answer quicker if there’s a plot behind it, though! But...as some people notice, even that can take forever ; o ;

long or short replies: I am terrible about keeping things short SO MUCH OF THE TIME! If someone replies long, I reply long, but if they reply short, I try so hard not to do TOO much...but sometimes if the reply just speaks to my muse, I get SUPER into it. I also get nervous if I am JUST starting to interact with that person and go ham just to be like, “I AM INTERESTED I HOPE SOMETHING OF THIS IS GOOD ENOUGH!” I wanna be that really attentive partner when starting off because I just want to make it fun for both sides!

best time to write: Sometimes I get super musey at like...3 AM and other times I write like no tomorrow at 6 PM ; there is no time that really speaks to me because I just slam dunk my muse when I get it! LMFAOOOO

are you like your muse(s): Most of my muses are cooler than me! I think in terms of a lot of them, I notice certain patterns that draw me in, but I tend to pick my characters at seemingly random sometimes...but I do love cutesy muses so much since I am a very cutesy individual in life (and by “cutesy” I mean...they are also drawn to pink, stuffed animals, and pretty things). So if I had to define myself close to a muse I have, it’d be...Chrissy Cunningham. I am very much like in a lot of regards except I wasn’t popular in school LOL so don’t read into that aspect of her.