Exuberant Apodyopsis

thank FUCK I'm not pretty anymore 🤘🏻

I'm so ready to be someone's good idea

being alone can be lonely at times but it's lonelier to hang out with someone who's anxious to get back to someone else

it's so funny when all my friends are like "don't talk w your ex" but then no one else but him is around and/or responding or reaching out when I'm feeling chatty it's like ok either this means i suck or have really bad timing or maybe that everything is coincidentally just not working to make that (don't talk to your ex) an easy plan of action

it's wild to care for someone so much while also kinda despising them. to feel so comfortable in their embrace and yet also cold. to hold my hope by its neck, saying I'm glad you're still here but you can't be about this person anymore. choose literally anyone else.

it sucks when things between me and someone i like blow up 💥💨💀 right after they've just gotten really great bc that gets me suspicious of when things feel really great it's like live-action depression and it is fucking awful

manic pixie forever boy

earlier this week i was doing the whole "is the spirit realm real? nah, probs not" thing and then two people in two days (one i haven't seen or talked with in like 10+? years) wrote to me saying i was in their dreams so idk maybe I'm bopping around in other dimensions and consciousnesses more than i realize

Me: [thinks about Rihanna] brain: yeah, that guy in Anchorage Me: ??? brain: the guy from Hinge who you talked with once in early 2021. he moved to Anchorage. Me: okayyy? i remember that guy. wtf does he have to do with Rihanna? brain: because y'all talked about movies brain: and he suggested you watch Another Round brain: which stars Mads Mikkelsen, and you're both fans of him brain: and Mads Mikkelsen was the "bitch" in Rihanna's 2015 music video for "Bitch Better Have My Money" Me: I... brain: what? Me: ...thanks, brain brain: 😁