i think i met my future husband in Brazil but I can’t focus on that right now

I really cannot act normal when I like someone like I genuinely need to be medicated ☠️ or just fully commit to being celibate and single for the rest of my life 😅🔫

so interesting how coping mechanisms from childhood will literally stick and be the only way for me to process things. I’m completely frozen in time until I sit down and write and write and write. Like I’ve been trying to switch over to lifting and bingeing (any and everything) and yoga and breath work but nothing heals me like filling a journal from beginning to end so annoying

posting my yoga content feels soo embarrassing (because my ass is so fat & im so beautiful)

fasting makes me soo sexy just like god intended

Kind of annoying that you don’t know how good you can feel until you feel it. But also kind of c00l

having a lot of feelings today - will try to solve with a sexy pic on ig & dip in sensory deprivation tank l8ter