These Are The Days That Must Happen To You

I promise you I will try harder to be better. I have battled with things inside me for longer than you know; I do not know what they are or why they are there, I only know that they feel manageable, defeatable, when I am around You.

All these soft, warm nights going to waste when I ought to be lying in your arms under the moon.

You have to pull yourself together in order to fall apart. I move in extremes. I need a quiet place to process it all and write. I’m one of those people that get really affected by other people’s energy. Honestly, I can be a bit of a wild animal when someone fucks with me - I don’t take it well, but I also don’t want to be known as someone not able to control my rage, so instead I withdraw.