All of this is true, but at the same time, I think youâre overstating things a bit.
For one thing, yes, it takes her twenty years to get the money and then the gun. But I donât know that Breq is used to considering things on a human timescale. Twenty years is nothing to an AI, thatâs an eyeblink. Ships and stations are effectively immortal, unless they are killed in a battle or something. How many thousands of years old is Justice of Toren by that point? And it may be reduced to one ancillary, but that ancillary isnât old; itâs got time. What else is JoT/Breq going to do with the ancillaryâs life? Sheâs not expecting to survive, after all. She might as well put in the time to make it really epic.
Sheâs got the time. A few years here, a few years there, itâll add up, but sheâll still be capable of carrying things out. Thereâs no rush. She can be patient, implacable. Itâs a very AI/ship perspective, but I wouldnât call it crazy or insane.
The other thing is, you have to consider her goals. Breq doesn't just want to kill an Anaander, she wants to kill her while all of Anaander is watching, so the divide between the two Anaanders canât be concealed. (And thus, what Anaander--both of them--did to her canât be concealed.)
There are many easy ways to kill an Anaander. There are a lot of Anaanders walking around, and if you pick an older one there wonât even be any bodyguards, we saw that on Shisâurna. Walk up, snap its neck, boom, done. Probably happens all the time.
Except that wonât get the attention Breq wants. It will be absolutely useless. Sheâll just be ârandom person snaps, gets re-educated.â It wonât get her Anaanderâs attention.
If she wants to get the attention of multiple Anaanders, so that theyâre both paying attention and it canât be hushed up, it pretty much has to be on a palace station in a temple in a formal audience. And if you want to kill an Anaander there, that is much harder. The station will see everything, it will see any weapon you bring on station, so you canât use a weapon. And there are guards at the beck and call. Even an ancillary might not be able to kill an Anaander in the middle of a Palace temple without a weapon, and you canât get a weapon.
Unless you get a weapon that station canât see.
Also, while Breq is affected by Garsedd, we know there is someone who is far more affected by Garsedd, and that is Anaander Mianaai. All the trouble, all the conflict, all the internal fighting that is becoming a civil war, it all starts there. Anaander became a house divided against herself because of what she did at Garsedd. If you want to absolutely rivet the attention of all Anaander segments out there, pull out the missing Garseddai gun.
And with that gun, you might even be able to kill multiple Anaanders before they take you down, even in the middle of a palace temple.
Believing sheâll be able to find the weapon that all the Radch agents couldnât ... that was hubris. But she was right that it would be the most effective way to achieve her goals, if she could manage it. And she had the twenty years to spare. And if it didnât work out, she could always go for a simpler way of killing an Anaander. So why not?