im so fucking tired. my parents are complaining about how i do nothing all day, they tell me to hang out with my friends and i feel too embarrassed to tell them that i dont have actual friends who enjoy my company, they will be taking my phone again for the whole summer, all my happiness exists online and i use fictions to cope. my parents make me feel like a total fool oh my god i hate spending time with them.
im so fucking stupid i cant even do basic things, i dont even know how to wash my hair correctly, i cant even stand stupid things basic things like bright lights or being in public places.
today i was with my parents shopping for clothes and i was trying not to cry the whole time cuz im basically just so tired and in bad mood like always. also my dad yelled at me to shut the fuck up wow
i feel so ashamed around everyone and no one even likes me anyways, i dont feel safe at home, i dont feel safe at anywhere else. everything i actually feel safe to talk, all my feelings get turned into something corny or stupid. im such a fucking joke omg
i tought summer break would be good for me to stay away from those dicks at school but no. im trying my best to stay clean the whole summer but everyone is making it so difficult. the only things that i find joy in are just my yumeship, drawing and making content here and all that will be taken away from me
sry this is long my whole screen is blurry now wow