My hyperfixations are so bad

She cooks most of the time. She gave up trying to make the ER workers eat actual meals during their shifts. But she still cooks huge portions of food packed in individual portions. And lets those in the breakroom's fridge when she picks up her dad in the morning. So everyone can take some back at home. She KNOWS no one has the energy to actually cook after a 15-or more-hour shift 12-hour shift.

She will always make sure there are snacks and pastries in the breakroom. Not just those soulless protein bars.

If you can't eat something because you are allergic / of your religious beliefs / you have a specific diet / you just don't like it. Just tell her. Don't worry. She'll figure it out. She has a full note on her phone with EVERYONE's restrictions / preferences. She even got a fucking group chat where she sends propositions of meals and cakes and they fucking VOTE for what they prefer to have. And if you want something really specific ? She'll do it just for you. But don't ask that too much, uh ? She'll do it anyway but no one tried yet because they know her ex-military, nightshift attending dad is watching.

She does it even for students / residents who don't stay for a long time. You are ER, that's all she needs to know, and she can make your life way eaisier. Now lasagne or marry me chicken pasta ?

Hell she'll cook what you ask even if it's your first shift. Of course I can do vegetarian spring rolls ! What was your name again ? She definitely got Emma a massive chocolate cake for her second day when she overheard the adorable new nurse got attacked on her first day. And Shen got jealous

But even if she mostly helps with food. That's not the only thing she does.

She would drive a dozen people to their homes after their shift, even if they live an hour away from the hospital.

She would give you advice to help with your sleep because she experienced every single sleep disorder that exists. Breathing techniques / weighted blankets / podcasts with soft voices / recommend a good somnologist she knows.

She comes to comfort anyone no matter what is going on. She doesn't care if you are crying because you got attacked by a patient, because you are overstimulated, because massive unsolved issues in your life or because of your shitty situationship. She'll be here. She'll hug, she'll let you cry it all out, she'll make you laugh and give the best peptalk ever.

She never forgets anyone's big event. Specially not birthdays. Even if some people would prefer her not to. AKA Michael "at some point you get too old to enjoy celebrating your birthday" Robinavitch. But she just grins and gives him his favorite cake.

And when Jack Abbott pulled her aside and tried to get her to slow down and rest she answered him and his rightful heir with a big ass smile "I'll rest when you'll rest."

Calleb was 17 and Amelia 11 when their mother passed away from a really aggressive pancreatic cancer.

The three of them kept eachother alive and functionning through grief. And then through the rest...

Because Jack is disabled, has PTSD from the army and suicidal tendencies. Because his mother's death triggered severe depression and anxiety in Calleb. And Because Amelia was diagnosed with schizophrenia at the age of 14.

Jack who let his kids sleep in his bed for 6 months after his wife's death. He claimed it was only to comfort them, but deep down it was also because he was unable to sleep in his wedding bed alone. He never stopped wearing his wedding ring even after 10 years and feels like he is betraying Evelyn every time he tries to live again. He threw himself even harder into his work at the ER and took night shifts as soon as Amelia was mentally stable old enough to be at home alone and forced himself to never commit for his kids. He taught both of them self-defense because he wanted them to be able to protect themself's if he ever became aggressive because of his PTSD they ever got in trouble. Then, when both of his children were old enough to be able to care for him, he aggressively tried to push them away. No, he didn't help with his prosthetic or with his nightmares. One night he argued so hard with Calleb that Amy called Robby crying, but eventually he let them in. Only 3 months later he enlisted as a SWAT physician. His boy told him to be careful with a soft and worried look. His youngest... didn't say anything but the look in her eyes was filled with anger and betrayal. That single look made his skin crawl. But the man feels even worse when Amy has a crisis and he can't do anything about it. His baby girl is panicked and feels threatened and he can't subdue the crisis or make her feel safe. The guilt eats him alive because schizophrenia is a sickness and he is a doctor but he can't heal her. He already lives with the guilt of not being able to save Evelyn. Now his daughter is sick and hurt and terrified and he can't do anything. Jack who lives with the certitude his kids have no idea he is going on the roof on the wrong side of the rail after almost every shift. But Shen broke and told Amy 3 years ago.

Calleb graduated from highschool like nothing happened because he was in bone deep denial for months. But when he saw his mother's chair an empty chair at his graduation, he spent five months swinging between non-stop crying and a catatonic state. One evening, he considered taking his dad's gun to kill the doctors who 'killed' his mother. He slept it off and immediately asked to see a therapist the next morning. He went to therapy and managed to crawl out of the abyss. Now he sees his therapist twice a month and checks on his sister and dad at least three times per day and will have a panic attack if they don't answer in the hour. But he made it through the worst of it and is now a 28 year old paramedic. He took care of himself so now he takes care of his family. He learned how to deal with their anger, learned that it was a cornered animal-like reaction. He makes sure Jack doesn't overwork himself but still lets him work a lot because he knows his mind goes dark when he doesn't have anything to do. He watches Amy from afar and makes sure she doesn't drown while trying to save others because all the people she loves are fucked up. He makes sure his father doesn't go mad when Amy is bad before quietly stepping into her hospital room and calmly reading her a book to ground her. Calleb, who spent most of his adult life living in the family house because he felt like leaving it meant abandoning what was left of his family. But after long, painful discussions, he left for an apartment with his girlfriend only 10 minutes away.

Amelia or "Amy" became extremely clingy after her mother's death. She was already close to her dad but after the worst event of her life she has spent a full year glued to her father's side or in his arms. Then in 7th grade, she claimed to always be in pain so she could come to the ER because she loved the staff ( Robby, Dana, Perlah & Princess, Langon, Jesse, Ahmad... ) and Jack didn't have the strength to fight her. Eventually, she managed to really go to school but she realised something was wrong with her she was special. She could hear demons or what she thought were demons. Voices talking to her non-stop saying things from 'His pants are ugly' to 'He gave mom cancer'. She never said anything because everyone was a threat. And it got worse and worse and worse. Until she tried to burst her own eardrums with a screwdriver to mute the voices. She spent two years in the hospital's psychiatric service 'upstairs'. Now she has a regular, adjusted treatment that has increasingly calmed her hallucinations even if they will never fully disappear and has learned to listen as little as possible. She finished highschool homeschooled with a personal teacher. Teacher that found her scholarships and applied for her to sooo many universities. She got accepted to almost all of them but never went because it meant leaving her father and brother. No one knows about it. She has a strict routine, a halftime job and spends the rest of her time at the Pitt, cooking/baking for the Pitt's staff because she used to cook with her mom she loves it and it keeps her mind busy.