ever (derogatory)

i am 19, i use any pronouns and am agender, ace and arospec! (do not make the joke. i am like a AAAAAA battery at this point)

i have maladaptive daydreaming + diagnosed adhd + autism (professional therapist confirmed)

i make funny art, write funny things, and cope

some fandoms i like:

adventure time, fear and hunger, stardew valley, honkai star rail, hlvrai, qsmp, fnaf, minecraft story mode, analog horror, disco elysium, the amazing digital circus, dead plate, night in the woods, gravity falls, good omens, classic literature (?? apparently), purrfect apawcalypse, object shows

current hyperfixation (i tend to circle back a lot): object shows (bfdi, hfjone, tnm, ab)

basically i really like horror games and just. video games in general. big fan of video games that just kill you dead

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chaos side blog where i put things unrelated to main: @everrsilly

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age 16: i really shouldn’t use language that impacts my and others’ mental health so negatively! i should make an effort to be more openly positive and divert my struggles into more humorous and less drastic statements

pin is Definitely traumatized. i mean she lost her autonomy and was Literally objectified over the course of bfdia and that changed her. the mech pin is a totally different pin that made the Choice to change and be violent and hyperfocus on winning and being the best as a way to cope with everything that happened to her. i repeat these are active choices shes making, but they come from a place of hurt

coiny i think firmly believes that this new pin, the one he’s seeing in the latter half of bfdia, is the Real Pin. this is the core of who pin is. and i think this is what helped him keep his doormat demeanor and stick by pin’s side: because he genuinely believes that it’s in her nature so it’s not her fault really. that’s just the kind of person she is! and this is reinforced in tpot 2! “since when did you care if we cheated? you just like to win!” he has internalized that that’s who pin is and is conditioning himself to admire it.

this is where their problems come from in tpot 2!! pin wants to forget it happened (wrong way to process everything) and leave the persona she created in bfdia behind while coiny is stuck believing that that persona IS pin at her core. and it’s not really who pin is, it’s the product of all the damage pin took over bfdia.

pin changing up on coiny again in tpot acting more like who she really is messes with coiny because it topples the precariously constructed excuses he made about her. it becomes not who she is but a choice that she made to hurt him. a pin that hurts him because she can’t help it, it’s in her nature to be ruthless and win, is easier than a pin who lashed out and chose to hurt him because she wanted to.

bfdia 20 spoilers below this line