the end is here

"Because you haven't finished that book you like yet"

—Sasha

and now mourning is political, too.

i'm so sorry, murry foust. i keep thinking about how tired you must have been. how tired all of us are. how humiliating it is that even when we die alone, people still laugh and debate whether we deserved to live a happy, dignified life at all.

there are trans kids online right now learning your name – and the names of juniper blessing, lucas redbeard knapp, aleanna belcher, and davonta curtis – through grief. through fear. through that horrible, familiar ache of "that could've been me." and i hate that this is part of our inheritance from one another. not just chosen family and resilience and beauty – but memorials. vigils. apology letters to ghosts.

Whitaker: peeled off both the rind and the skin so it's just a bunch of the juice cells. It makes him eat it by sprinkling it in his mouth like cheese and she enjoys inconveniencing him

Javadi: dried slices coated in chocolate

Mel: blood oranges. One unpeeled because Mel prefers to do it and one carefully sliced to remove the rind then put in a baggie because Becca hates peeling but likes pulling it apart and want it to be cold.

Dana: Orange bread

Robbie: terribly peeled and unsplit, to be eaten like a heathen. This is also how she makes it for herself.

McKay: orange infused rock candy

Langdon: unpeeled underripe pomello. + a baggie of peeled mandarin for his kids.

Baran: Orange Posset. Mostly because she mispronounces it to be funny, but also it's something Baran's son can also have.

Garcia: Bourbon and orange spiced cocktail

Perlah/Princess: condensed zest and juice into a syrup to put over shaved ice.

#And please STOP trying to contain your trans siblings

#we should never be enforcing imaginary rules on each other

#part of community is helping each other stand tall

"They're always making new pokemon. Gotta see em all."

-anonymous